Sunday, 4 January 2015

Policing

I was a great risk taker and had a nonchalant attitude. When decisions surfaced, I will casually decide. Often which, I regretted all of them very very much. Many things have shaped and changed my behavior. Poly education is coming to an end, entering into my next milestone- uni/career choice.

I am really interesting in being a policewomen, investigating, gathering information, analyzing them. The accomplishment when you solved the case makes me feel so important and significant in the society. However, I am just really afraid of the physical training, especially the residential course because I was afraid I will not be able to meet their expectations and all. But I understand that I must persevere to achieve my dream job.

Weiwei is interested in policing too! This is gonna be eggciting :)

These few weeks, or rather, this gruesome period, I feel so suffocated and  depressed deep deep down. I do not know how to express this emotion. I have been secretly fighting and  swallowing my emotions. Projects is stressing me out and I feel so drained.

Most of my group mates are really nice and fun to be with, but there is just one freaking guy whom I feel so disgusted about. I just hate his attitude towards work and our working styles are just 2 worlds apart. I have been ranting to him to so many of my friends and each time I start ranting, I could feel my face swell up and I was really furious and irritated. He is like the Worse.Guy.Ever. I have never in my life met such a childish, irritating, angsty, talk-until-he-will-do-alot, secretly-tarnish-his-friends-repuation guy in my entire lifeee!!! AAARRRGGGHHH!!!

Will be going to atrium with Sheila to do SPSS tonight. le sigh