Unofficially graduated

Here comes my ultra long holiday break. I am really eggcited about it. Is currently one week into my awesome holiday period!!! I feel so carefree and genuinely happy!!!! Is insanely peaceful!!! 

But gonna start work next week and regretted a little bit, cuz im really scared i will be an awkward turtle and will do stupid things. I want to rest more too but oh well :( quite bad to reject it suddenly right?? Is 6 weeks! Gonna be like internship! Yay. Really hope the people there are genuinely naice and pray hard I wont be some stupid looking potato doing silliest mistakes. 

Starting to love bearbear more:) he so kewt. 

Sheila came to my house yesterday (it was chu qi). We played ban luck with bearbear and he got a ban luck!!! Crazy piece of shit!!!

Feel the urge to buy more clothes but also kinda lazy to browse plus i have bags of clothes hidden in my cupboard.

Hiding in the kitchen during cny

I love cny (money only) 

TOODLES 

Last Semester

NO MORE PROJECTS!! HOORAY! TIME TO COUNTER EXAMS! YAHOOO! EGGCITED (NOT)

This semester has been a hellish roller coaster ride. But one person whom I am really grateful will definitely be Sheila, her crabbiness (pun intended) never failed to make me laughed and light up my stressful process of doing projects (be honoured)

So, we have the same kind of cheapskate personality and have a deep loveeeeee for freebies so, we went to SP Open House and grabbed some free loots! YAY! The teenage magazine bag was really awesome. There were plenty of facial samples. There was a generous amount from Etude House! We had to take a picture before we can take the bag home so tada:

This sem would be really different without crabby and bearbear

Sheila and I spent alot of time overnighting and doing projects together with our bearbear and crabby :)

And kiefer and I kinda became friends again:) So i had the chance to meet pork chop. In this picture, he is currently excited to get electrocuted by my laptop charger.

I brought bearbear to school and he was pops among my groupmates:) So happy that there are people who thinks he is kewt too:)

Policing

I was a great risk taker and had a nonchalant attitude. When decisions surfaced, I will casually decide. Often which, I regretted all of them very very much. Many things have shaped and changed my behavior. Poly education is coming to an end, entering into my next milestone- uni/career choice.

I am really interesting in being a policewomen, investigating, gathering information, analyzing them. The accomplishment when you solved the case makes me feel so important and significant in the society. However, I am just really afraid of the physical training, especially the residential course because I was afraid I will not be able to meet their expectations and all. But I understand that I must persevere to achieve my dream job.

Weiwei is interested in policing too! This is gonna be eggciting :)

These few weeks, or rather, this gruesome period, I feel so suffocated and  depressed deep deep down. I do not know how to express this emotion. I have been secretly fighting and  swallowing my emotions. Projects is stressing me out and I feel so drained.

Most of my group mates are really nice and fun to be with, but there is just one freaking guy whom I feel so disgusted about. I just hate his attitude towards work and our working styles are just 2 worlds apart. I have been ranting to him to so many of my friends and each time I start ranting, I could feel my face swell up and I was really furious and irritated. He is like the Worse.Guy.Ever. I have never in my life met such a childish, irritating, angsty, talk-until-he-will-do-alot, secretly-tarnish-his-friends-repuation guy in my entire lifeee!!! AAARRRGGGHHH!!!

Will be going to atrium with Sheila to do SPSS tonight. le sigh

Mid way through my last semester

I know my last sem will be a blast. 

Im really thankful for every person who will make my last sem sooooo light hearted (ESP my groupmates) 

I never expect my last sem to be filled with so much joy and laughter. My groupmates are really lovely people. But i think we will definitely drift 😢😢😢

It is very hard to meet same frequency people in poly and my group mates are like the bestest friends everrrr. They are spontaneous, funny and they really make me feel comfortable in a group. 

It has been ages since i felt happy and excited for school 😚😚😚

Munchin and I are really good friends now and im so thankful for that too. Im so glad we still can have fun and gossip and stuffs. We are going to have a Christmas lunch together too!!! Hooray!!!

It has really been a hectic sem. Sometimes i wonder if psychology is really for me. I am interested in majoring in criminology but this means i have to write reports and all that shit. This sem is full of reports and i died like 1000 times while doing all of them. Im so unsure of my work. My poor english writing skills is affecting me. Psy sem is difficult. Those foreign terms needs some understanding. It makes everything so nerve wrecking!!! 

Is not like marketing sem whereby for eg. "Brand awareness", this term is easier to comprehend as compared to "cognitive dissonance"... Like whatttttt...... Nevertheless, I still want to do my best and take good ownership of my work. I think is really important to study hard and take pride in every assignment i do. 

I took a personality test for fbp (the real mbti kind) im an Infp! I couldn't agree further for inf. but p is kinda wrong. I hate last minute work. Oh well. 

I am still very troubled over what I should study for university. And also on the thought on should I really go UQ? Sigh....

Tata

Amazinga

COLOUR RUN was amazing!

Before that, patrick and I went to november cafe for brunchie! Initally, we wanted to visit Habitat instead :( but the queue was......



The eggs were awesome:)

Initially, I thought it would be really tiring and draggy cuz it was a 5km run. I hate running and did not train for it. I thought the run was gonna be unbearable and boring. Hell no! It was fun (especially with patrick s company)!!! Every 1 km, helpers will spray us with the powder and I had fun dosing myself and making myself look horrible and dirty in it! Yay! All the time, i was walking, hahahaha, cuz i had really terrible stitches :(

Our first dosage of blue at the starting line! The emcess were hyping us up and it was really funny to see the runners who were near the emcees getting a large amount of dose on them!

Our 3rd km, not that dirty, oh and there was free icy cold 100 plus :) YAY

At the after party, and we got photo bombed! woo hoo!

I think everyone looked like this after that, bee doh bee doh

 

tata.

Trouble

Troubling over what is my next step after getting a diploma. I want to study overseas but....

1) Cost

I will be enjoying advance standing for certain unis. 1.5 years for UQ and 1 year for UM. However, the living expenses is soooo expensive, approx 30k per year? Sigh 

2) Racism

THIS IS THE GREAT ISSUE.

Karma. I am quite racist towards certain races. What goes around comes around. So i am quite afraid of getting back my own medicine too :( I will definitely feel really depressed and sad towards racist critics of being an Asian if I were to live in Australia since Australia is quite well known to be a racist country. My results will definitely be affected and since I am all alone, I will not be able to rant and receive quick responses from my friends or meet them :( 

Reasons of why I want to study overseas 

1) Exposure

Top Top Reason. 

I believe i will definitely learn to be more independent and confident which will aid me in my future jobs and the stepping stones I have to face. I will be able to develop more insights and thoughts on issues (more mature? Hehe) 

2) Sightsee

Fun in the sun. Basking and lazing around. Breezy and cooling walks. 



toodles

Top 4 reasons why i love holidays in poly

1) Mini getaway from the ever judge mental environment. One is afraid to be seen alone in school, being seen to be sloppily dress, hence creating the perception that they are weird, uncool, lonely. 

 

2) Time to jiggle and wiggle. The strong need to loose some fats. 

3) Catch up with your old friends. Poly life is really hectic which makes me grow so tired and lazy to attend gatherings and all. Holidays are definitely the best period to plan and meet your friends. 

4) Rejunevate. Who do not feel more energetic and relaxed during holidays? Im worry-freeeeeeee. 

I used to hate holidays in secondary and primary school, prolly cuz im the only child, i dont have a playmate whom i can play and chat with daily😢 school was really enjoyable despite the ridiculous amount of school work, i love the good company of friends and schoolmates! Poly brings me a step closer to the real society. I really hate it. But i guess that is how life is, so i will definitely adapt and motivate myself to work hard!