Turning point

I think im secretly enjoying poly life. Like so manu fun peeps in my life. Theres still true friends and bullyable friends whom j can depend on, have fun with, talk too, share with, play with, work hard with etc. feeling really grateful suddnly. Prolly cuz i mix wif molly too much, i have alot of thoughts and am really sentimental but i suck at showing appreciation and concern i think( hmmm,yup i do!)

So yup! Kinda enjoyin the company i have in poly life:)

SEETEES ARE OVER!

THANKKKKKKKKK GAWDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

SEEEE TEEEESSS ARE OFFICIALLY OVER!
but still gonna have 5 exam papers next yr, during cny -.- meh

ohwell, recently i have been really pms-ing like so many cranky stuffs happen. And i actually ponned  a class outing, i mean, me, this kind of person would nv pon fun outings like that ( okay actually it isnt very fun cuz very few ppl ) but first outing always counts, as the people will be closer and knitted better than subsequent outing i think, but i actually pon it, i think my brain must have been fried or smth. I hv been kinda emo nemo also, i mean i dont really show la, but like im really damn tired about life, the really idgasf feel. oh well...

oh, and i have been really nice recently, like comforting many friends, and most importantly, really being damn nice to my mum. Like I am showing really sincere care and concern for her la, like I won't wanna leave her alone kind, and always try to make her feel happy, like eating meals at home( even though I prefer to do so now, cuz i have no money :( ) , showing her what games i play and all la, cuz after chuwen's mummy incident, I really saw the light about caring for your love ones cuz they come and might go easily too "touchwood", i always felt so after funerals and all, i would show extreme appreciation for a day or two then after that just "bling!" back to my old quiet self at home, but not for now, cuz I can really imagine the pain and the torment I will face if one sunny day, I lost my parents "touchwood', I would really get into depression and everything would fall apart, I would live in remorse and guilt cuz I obviously, hardly talk to them, appreciate them, like I always dao them, dao them more than how I normally dao kelly and all. I myself hates getting dao too la, but my dao to them is super extreme and all. so yup, so im starting to appreciate them, esp my mum, since my dad is in china and all, and im gonna zuo fei ji on fri to china for a holiday and a reunion with papa! kinda eggcited too!

Nevertheless, i think i am not as optimistic as before, like last time in cca and sec life, we had projects, we had problems and im always like the one who will draw the attention to smth else so ppl will forgot abt that bad thing, or I will like "come on guys! can one can one!" but now, my "come on guys!" are like so minimal, and not as enthusiastic as before. Im just one day closer to death upon waking up everyday.... meh.....

Teddy

Was deep in thoughts regarding bgr stuffz and my haunting past and somehow ted made myday

Toked to my ec today. Like the really f2f chat and he sho tall!!
<3