the letter to thy guy

suppose to be studying for my exams:( but oh well, cant keep procrastinating so decided to do something fruitful and enjoyable instead.
today is 14feb, in commemoration of valentine's death, yours truly shall write a letter to my future husband!!!!

Dearest blablabla,

thanks for tolerating my nonsense and my "child-like ness", not sure if im still as child-like as i am( i am currently 18 btw). im child like, but not childish okay! I tend to be awkward with people really easily and think alot about how people perceive and feel about me, hence, the awkwardness, so sorry if i made you caught in between your friends/families, nevertheless, i believe that being awkward is a terrible and horrible thing, i would definitely try my best to kick away this stupid part of me.

pinterest has also been my inspiration board, i pinned many of my to-dos and likes in it, so hopefully that can be ur guide to plan surprises/gifts for me! hooray! i really love surprises but im super good at spoiling it cuz i think alot, and get suspicious super duper easily, i think i get sensitive over things more than typical girls too!! But that's me! i like being suspicious, i like thinking, i like to think deeeeeeeeeeeppppppppp.

be terribly kind to my parents, love them as much as your own parents or more than that. i know this is selfish cuz ur parents are also ur benefactory, they clothed you well, they brought you up to a fine man but i hope my parents can be at least on par with them because i wanna really provide them with all i have, i know they would feel terribly lonely without me cuz im like their only child and they are super sentimental, so i hope you would work hand in hand with me, and double the love for them. Hence, i hope i wont feel caught in between your parents and mine. gosh, this part is turning my eyes watery :(((

get a stable job pleaseeeeeee! dun starve me :( branded and expensive stuffs are never needs nor wants in my life, maybe occasionally? i super duper prefer cheap thrills and handmade stuffs!!!

oh and the thing about being faithful, i know typical girls want their husbands to like love them till they die or something, but in reality, i doubt so, even when guys are married, even though they dont cheat, they still watch porn and lust over these women. Hence, idgad if you cheat on me, just dun ever let me know, dont ever let people around me know and DONT EVERY TREAT ME DIFFERENTLY, dont every treat me coldly when you have other woman outside, just pretend nothing happens and dun you dare break my heart! i will keel you >:(

i really loveee excitment and surprises(cant emphasize more on that) and things are are different, like i hate mainstream stuffs. oh and i love traveling but definitely not the package tour, so unromantic and hectic. double hate them.

ecp date with girlies!!!

New love: find thy panties for my kewt little bear bear to cloth it on him!!:) YAY!!

Oops sorry for the side track, went ecp wif jiamin and regine today. It was quite fun! And i got man and tan! YAY! AND I RODE ON THE 2 ppl bike! it wasnt as tough and tedious as what i expected, jiamin and i took turns to rest and slack whilst one cycle too! 

I was sitting at the back and i love it! I didnt have to steer or watsoever!!! 

We used self timer and the sky really look very pweety wif the marshmallowishie fluffy clouds!!

Tata! 

Kristmasy at Town

WENT TOWN WIF YISHIN TODAI! and we talk alot abt idare and stuffs. Really miss my bits and pieces of the past( only happy moments ). We chanced upon many lovely krismasy stuffs too!! GREAT GREAT IMPROMPTU

KETCHUP. but my legs are freaking soreeeee

Loots of the day!!! In love wif this freaking adorable bunnies!!!:) one for secret santa and the other one i bought extra for myself!

Vow that i will not step into factorie cuz it was co s friend and the peeps there attitude was sucky -.- BUT yishin jus pulled me in and i immd fell

In love wif this daisy dress!! Super flattering! Not much obv armpit fats and big fat hips! YAY 

end of ct'13

not really in a super duper happy holiday mood though, cuz i still have exams and i know i wont do really well as what i expected for CT's :( haish

i guess is because i havent really focus and put in effort. despite being always panicky and holding my notes, i havent really read or studied thoroughly though. oh well.

despite the spilt milk, i still have many wishlist for my holidays that im kinda eggcited to fufill :)

1) outing wif gwace
2) sleepover at regines?

but i really wanna sleep over at rachel chen's too, but we kinda drifted and is quite shameless to request to have a sleepover at her house, but her house is really gorgeous and big!!!

3) www

ERMAGAWD, have been craving it for super long, almost went www but there was the stupid hazee

4) catching up wif all my jc friends:)

sasa is moving house, gonna help her!! i wanna meet up wif tiffany and gladys too:) but we kinda not talk anymore but i doubt it will be awkward when we meet, havent really dated them yet :(

5) go for a countdown/kristmas party
6) nco's outing?

really wanna have one wif almost full manpower, i really really miss each of them, i have this special impression for each of them.

7) studyyyyyy
yes, i wanna try to pull up my gpa despite this unfortunate ct, that has really made me very dishearten over studies, but im just gonna try one las time, for the sake of exams

8) sew
diy muscle tanks?:) daisy skirts <3

9) cafe hopping
wif yishin ofc:) really love how i became so close and comfortable wif her because of idare. idare wasnt a huge impact to my life even though there were many overated good comments about it, but yishin was like the only true friend that really jelled wif me very very much, so is isabelly, but we kinda not talk :(

ERMAGAWD WAI ISIT I DRIFT SO EASILY:((((

tata

Regine s surprise parteh!

Throwback 

Surprise party for regine!

Gave her a lovely denim f21 shirt and a super addictive oreo cheesecake!!

Common tests

Strong urge to blog again

I was quite motivated to study and really pull up my gpa after hearing wad pmkt teacher said abt admissions to uni. I really love school. Like the environment and events and secretly dun mind studying again(apart from exams). So much better then working ... Dun really wanna study overseas too cuz i hate staying in those lofts and such. 

But then too many things are occupying my mind, which i cant focus on my revision!!:( i totally flung my aaa. I really pray there s ecf:( sian. I wanna get at least 80 plus but i think is not gonna be possible either. 

And my social psy class kinda suck wif all the pops ppl and im in this looser grp, like wif absentees, but thank god for jeremy, he pangseh the group of boys! YAY! But still 5 more lessons. Ermagawd... And 2 project works.... Siannnn...

Cant wait for yr 2 sem 2 to be over too. I have a feeling yr 3 is gonna be fun since i will have patrick wholey to myself as suhui and lynn will b having 6 mth internn! i know is kinda selfish to hold on to a friend and not share but who doesnt want a good friend whom u can have it all by urself? Ohwell..

beauty and the beast

so basically, just kinda feel that tonight, i needa post something related to inner beauty.

as we grow and mature, i think majority of the people really care and take pride of their outlook and appearance. Not only does one care about their fashion sense, their size, face matters too. sometimes i feel that is really superficial, since inner beauty is often emphasized but rarely recognized.  i doubt inner beauty really exist in the majorities' eyes though.

i myself has started to be obsessed by my outlook and appearance too. im used to be really thrifty( not buying this and that, opting for cheaper meals ) and i never ask my parents for more money cuz i want them to spend less too. however, as time goes by, i start to splurge extravagantly, especially, on clothes. i used to spend at least 30 bucks per week on clothes online. half of the time, i dont look good in them, and i have to sell them at a cheaper price. wasting lots and lots of money accumulatively.

my old habit of being really thrifty and saving was no longer in me. i really need tooo save and stop and control!

tata