Trouble

Troubling over what is my next step after getting a diploma. I want to study overseas but....

1) Cost

I will be enjoying advance standing for certain unis. 1.5 years for UQ and 1 year for UM. However, the living expenses is soooo expensive, approx 30k per year? Sigh 

2) Racism

THIS IS THE GREAT ISSUE.

Karma. I am quite racist towards certain races. What goes around comes around. So i am quite afraid of getting back my own medicine too :( I will definitely feel really depressed and sad towards racist critics of being an Asian if I were to live in Australia since Australia is quite well known to be a racist country. My results will definitely be affected and since I am all alone, I will not be able to rant and receive quick responses from my friends or meet them :( 

Reasons of why I want to study overseas 

1) Exposure

Top Top Reason. 

I believe i will definitely learn to be more independent and confident which will aid me in my future jobs and the stepping stones I have to face. I will be able to develop more insights and thoughts on issues (more mature? Hehe) 

2) Sightsee

Fun in the sun. Basking and lazing around. Breezy and cooling walks. 



toodles

Top 4 reasons why i love holidays in poly

1) Mini getaway from the ever judge mental environment. One is afraid to be seen alone in school, being seen to be sloppily dress, hence creating the perception that they are weird, uncool, lonely. 

 

2) Time to jiggle and wiggle. The strong need to loose some fats. 

3) Catch up with your old friends. Poly life is really hectic which makes me grow so tired and lazy to attend gatherings and all. Holidays are definitely the best period to plan and meet your friends. 

4) Rejunevate. Who do not feel more energetic and relaxed during holidays? Im worry-freeeeeeee. 

I used to hate holidays in secondary and primary school, prolly cuz im the only child, i dont have a playmate whom i can play and chat with daily😢 school was really enjoyable despite the ridiculous amount of school work, i love the good company of friends and schoolmates! Poly brings me a step closer to the real society. I really hate it. But i guess that is how life is, so i will definitely adapt and motivate myself to work hard! 

Theeee cofffeeee dailyyyyy

This week is elearning week!! HOORAYYY!! Really love breaks like this. And the best thing is there will be no common tests!!! Yay!!! Finally!!! I will have 3 weeks of shiokolate worth of June holidays!!! Eeepeeee. 

Went to the coffee daily ytd!!! Was really excited about their pastelicious quirky looking rainbow cake. It was really moist and yummyyy!!!! 

The pretty rainbow drops totally complement the colour and it taste really good together with the cake! Crunchy and great!!!

Regine ordered the hazelnut cake. But i still preferred the rainbow one because it looks really pretty and taste really good which made me really happy that day!!

I had their crossaint egg and bacon too. I tot it would literally be the pan fried salty bacon and mashy eggs but to my surprise, it was just plain jam and just cooked eggs. But it was fine too, cuz it was really something new. But the sweet dressing with it made it really good too! Crossaint was buttery and crispy! Just like how i wanted it!! 

There were like free ice gem biscuits and i had a good fill of it while waiting for jiamean. The waiting of food or beverages were not really long tooo!!! Just that there were too many people and it was kinda crampy:(

Anyway i had bcomm interview ytd and i got a b-b+ and i freaking cried in front of the teacher :( i dont know what got into mean, i didnt felt like krying but she kept repeating my results and my mistakes and i felt so terribly stress and sorry :( because tbh, i really wanted to ace everything, every single assignment, every single module, every single tasks 😢😢 haish. Oh well. I needa speak slower and really try to brush up on my grammar and stop using like like like like likeeeeee!!!!

126

Went with patrick to 126 at geylang after our lame hygiene course. 

All the food were in mini bites and it was really kewt!!! The supposedly custard bao had a sweet corn paste instead of the typical salty egg yolk ones:( oh well, and the filling luo chu lai too:( but overall it was still yummy despite the clumny and corn sweetened paste!

We ordered the must have siew mai and har kow which was fine too!

Xiao long bao had the typical xiao long bao taste with just like a few drops of soup? and it was sub standard.

The Chee cheong fan was the best, we thought it was those typical salty soya sauce but instead it was refreshing sweetened sweet smelling paste, it was really delicious and special! Must try!!!

We had guo tie too cuz i was kinda craving for schools' ban mian set which came with the big meaty fried guo tie. But this was dry and the meat was hard and clunky:( BIGGG disappointment!!!

We were appalled when we were served in containers for our drink. But do not be deceive by its looks. It's actually really refreshing and not diluted at all as it comes with small bits of jelly! Oh is honey lemon by the way! First dish was our pork porridge which was silky smooth and peppered which lots of porky!!!:)

Cant wait to eat more yummy stuffs in the future with patrick!:) hoorayyy

Trip to the zoo!

Went to the zoo with regine during school holidays! It was like a mini adventure as i observed the many snip snaps of the zoooooo!!! I really felt different as compared to the time when I went there when I was young. It kinda felt more peaceful, light-hearted, not much of te excitement or enthusiastic that always tire me out easily. 

Anyway i had my m and i also had some terrible aches and all :( all in all, it was a good day, basking myself under the sun, having fun with creations of Mother Nature!!:). Yay! 

Mister hippo. Or isit a rino?

A really lovely floral bedded train that has this countryside and floral feeeelll!!

The one and only selfie as we came across this beautiful stretched pond!

Lazy polar basking in the sun. Kinda sad for him as his fur is actually coated with some algae :(

Tata

Guilt ridden

I shouted at my marketing research today. I am feeling really guilty and sad about it. Haish. I really must try my best to be attentive and do my individual project to my fullest! Jiayou jolyn!!

Next, i feel so troubled about school. 

Troubled about project work and my next semester. 

I really really pray that i will be able to work well with my team members and somehow we still can clinch a b+ or so😢😢 

I know is kinda later for some resolutions since resolutions are always at the start of the year. But the start of school really brought me much insights and thoughts to many stuffs. Hence, I have decided on 3 new resolutions!

1) to be independant

2) as much as possible, be careful

3) stay positive to work extremely hard

Okay TATA. 

Trip to Bintan

Hellowy!

Had a really impromptu trip to Bintan with Paul, Mum and Sasa! I was really shocked Sasa agreed to go so fast and had a really quick approval from her Mummy too! The entire trip was kinda like an 8/10 because everything was so freaking pricey that we did not participated in much water activities but the food was damn good and last of all, company was da bomb!!! I think Club Med would be much more fufilling though :(

Here is a selfie of us safely arrive at Bintan Laggoon Resort (via Sindo 6 )

                                                   

We took a buggy to the resort! It was a fun and bumpy ride! oh and the last day, sasa and I had a chance to stand behind the buggy and I was like crazily waving at everyone. It was like a mini bumper car ride!!!

                                        

Really spacious room isn't it? But not that cheap either :( I didnt really like the flooring. It was tiled and felt sticky and sandy though so I had to wear the hotel slippers at all times :(


     
Just a quick peek at the lovely beach, the water is freaking clear I swear and the sand is freaking fine!

        

Resorty. Those wooden benches seriously gives me the IDARE feel as I vividly remember there were such benches located outside my room and many were lazing around there at night to gaze at the burst of stars. I miss those days though :(

 

The first meal we had at some fresh seafood restaurant.  Freaking pricey okay! 200 bucks for like 4 people. But everything tasted really great and flavourfulllllllll.

      
Banananananan Boat. It cost 18.90 per Pax for just a 15 minute ride! But it was really thrilling and i think we had like an extra 10 minutes though because the others who rode with us were super spontaneous and cheered on for another round! I had muscle aches all over now because i was locking my arms and butt as there were many "near-death" incidents throughout the entire thrilling ride!!!
                                           
 

Pool. We spent our day 1 and day 3 at the pool. It was not fascinating as there was no slides or exciting fountains there, but we had great company with our splashy!
                                          
 


Hearty Dinner. We really spent alot on meals hence, por decided to just takeaway some stuffs for on dinner on the second night, it was just plain fried rice and noodles, did not look appetizing either but it was really delicious!

   

During this trip, I am really glad and happy to see how "lovey-dovey" my mum was willing to be towards my dad. There were quite a few heart-warming sights, but of course, there were some disgusting and horrible incidents too :( Nevertheless, I was really happy too! Sasa was shocked and really happy for por as well :)

                                         


 It was an amazing trip and really an ideal one that met my 2 main expectations

1) nua-all-day-long feel, worry-free, rush-free
2) beachy, sandy, watery

I am really thankful for my dad who like rush back from his trip to book and settled many stuffs which was quite frustrating as he needed to accomodate my mum's weird thoughts and feelings :/ and ofcourse, my bestie whom i know for 10 years :) accompanying me. We had joy, we had fun, we had seasons in the sun.