Policing

I was a great risk taker and had a nonchalant attitude. When decisions surfaced, I will casually decide. Often which, I regretted all of them very very much. Many things have shaped and changed my behavior. Poly education is coming to an end, entering into my next milestone- uni/career choice.

I am really interesting in being a policewomen, investigating, gathering information, analyzing them. The accomplishment when you solved the case makes me feel so important and significant in the society. However, I am just really afraid of the physical training, especially the residential course because I was afraid I will not be able to meet their expectations and all. But I understand that I must persevere to achieve my dream job.

Weiwei is interested in policing too! This is gonna be eggciting :)

These few weeks, or rather, this gruesome period, I feel so suffocated and  depressed deep deep down. I do not know how to express this emotion. I have been secretly fighting and  swallowing my emotions. Projects is stressing me out and I feel so drained.

Most of my group mates are really nice and fun to be with, but there is just one freaking guy whom I feel so disgusted about. I just hate his attitude towards work and our working styles are just 2 worlds apart. I have been ranting to him to so many of my friends and each time I start ranting, I could feel my face swell up and I was really furious and irritated. He is like the Worse.Guy.Ever. I have never in my life met such a childish, irritating, angsty, talk-until-he-will-do-alot, secretly-tarnish-his-friends-repuation guy in my entire lifeee!!! AAARRRGGGHHH!!!

Will be going to atrium with Sheila to do SPSS tonight. le sigh

Mid way through my last semester

I know my last sem will be a blast. 

Im really thankful for every person who will make my last sem sooooo light hearted (ESP my groupmates) 

I never expect my last sem to be filled with so much joy and laughter. My groupmates are really lovely people. But i think we will definitely drift 😢😢😢

It is very hard to meet same frequency people in poly and my group mates are like the bestest friends everrrr. They are spontaneous, funny and they really make me feel comfortable in a group. 

It has been ages since i felt happy and excited for school 😚😚😚

Munchin and I are really good friends now and im so thankful for that too. Im so glad we still can have fun and gossip and stuffs. We are going to have a Christmas lunch together too!!! Hooray!!!

It has really been a hectic sem. Sometimes i wonder if psychology is really for me. I am interested in majoring in criminology but this means i have to write reports and all that shit. This sem is full of reports and i died like 1000 times while doing all of them. Im so unsure of my work. My poor english writing skills is affecting me. Psy sem is difficult. Those foreign terms needs some understanding. It makes everything so nerve wrecking!!! 

Is not like marketing sem whereby for eg. "Brand awareness", this term is easier to comprehend as compared to "cognitive dissonance"... Like whatttttt...... Nevertheless, I still want to do my best and take good ownership of my work. I think is really important to study hard and take pride in every assignment i do. 

I took a personality test for fbp (the real mbti kind) im an Infp! I couldn't agree further for inf. but p is kinda wrong. I hate last minute work. Oh well. 

I am still very troubled over what I should study for university. And also on the thought on should I really go UQ? Sigh....

Tata

Amazinga

COLOUR RUN was amazing!

Before that, patrick and I went to november cafe for brunchie! Initally, we wanted to visit Habitat instead :( but the queue was......



The eggs were awesome:)

Initially, I thought it would be really tiring and draggy cuz it was a 5km run. I hate running and did not train for it. I thought the run was gonna be unbearable and boring. Hell no! It was fun (especially with patrick s company)!!! Every 1 km, helpers will spray us with the powder and I had fun dosing myself and making myself look horrible and dirty in it! Yay! All the time, i was walking, hahahaha, cuz i had really terrible stitches :(

Our first dosage of blue at the starting line! The emcess were hyping us up and it was really funny to see the runners who were near the emcees getting a large amount of dose on them!

Our 3rd km, not that dirty, oh and there was free icy cold 100 plus :) YAY

At the after party, and we got photo bombed! woo hoo!

I think everyone looked like this after that, bee doh bee doh

 

tata.

Trouble

Troubling over what is my next step after getting a diploma. I want to study overseas but....

1) Cost

I will be enjoying advance standing for certain unis. 1.5 years for UQ and 1 year for UM. However, the living expenses is soooo expensive, approx 30k per year? Sigh 

2) Racism

THIS IS THE GREAT ISSUE.

Karma. I am quite racist towards certain races. What goes around comes around. So i am quite afraid of getting back my own medicine too :( I will definitely feel really depressed and sad towards racist critics of being an Asian if I were to live in Australia since Australia is quite well known to be a racist country. My results will definitely be affected and since I am all alone, I will not be able to rant and receive quick responses from my friends or meet them :( 

Reasons of why I want to study overseas 

1) Exposure

Top Top Reason. 

I believe i will definitely learn to be more independent and confident which will aid me in my future jobs and the stepping stones I have to face. I will be able to develop more insights and thoughts on issues (more mature? Hehe) 

2) Sightsee

Fun in the sun. Basking and lazing around. Breezy and cooling walks. 



toodles

Top 4 reasons why i love holidays in poly

1) Mini getaway from the ever judge mental environment. One is afraid to be seen alone in school, being seen to be sloppily dress, hence creating the perception that they are weird, uncool, lonely. 

 

2) Time to jiggle and wiggle. The strong need to loose some fats. 

3) Catch up with your old friends. Poly life is really hectic which makes me grow so tired and lazy to attend gatherings and all. Holidays are definitely the best period to plan and meet your friends. 

4) Rejunevate. Who do not feel more energetic and relaxed during holidays? Im worry-freeeeeeee. 

I used to hate holidays in secondary and primary school, prolly cuz im the only child, i dont have a playmate whom i can play and chat with daily😢 school was really enjoyable despite the ridiculous amount of school work, i love the good company of friends and schoolmates! Poly brings me a step closer to the real society. I really hate it. But i guess that is how life is, so i will definitely adapt and motivate myself to work hard! 

Theeee cofffeeee dailyyyyy

This week is elearning week!! HOORAYYY!! Really love breaks like this. And the best thing is there will be no common tests!!! Yay!!! Finally!!! I will have 3 weeks of shiokolate worth of June holidays!!! Eeepeeee. 

Went to the coffee daily ytd!!! Was really excited about their pastelicious quirky looking rainbow cake. It was really moist and yummyyy!!!! 

The pretty rainbow drops totally complement the colour and it taste really good together with the cake! Crunchy and great!!!

Regine ordered the hazelnut cake. But i still preferred the rainbow one because it looks really pretty and taste really good which made me really happy that day!!

I had their crossaint egg and bacon too. I tot it would literally be the pan fried salty bacon and mashy eggs but to my surprise, it was just plain jam and just cooked eggs. But it was fine too, cuz it was really something new. But the sweet dressing with it made it really good too! Crossaint was buttery and crispy! Just like how i wanted it!! 

There were like free ice gem biscuits and i had a good fill of it while waiting for jiamean. The waiting of food or beverages were not really long tooo!!! Just that there were too many people and it was kinda crampy:(

Anyway i had bcomm interview ytd and i got a b-b+ and i freaking cried in front of the teacher :( i dont know what got into mean, i didnt felt like krying but she kept repeating my results and my mistakes and i felt so terribly stress and sorry :( because tbh, i really wanted to ace everything, every single assignment, every single module, every single tasks 😢😢 haish. Oh well. I needa speak slower and really try to brush up on my grammar and stop using like like like like likeeeeee!!!!

126

Went with patrick to 126 at geylang after our lame hygiene course. 

All the food were in mini bites and it was really kewt!!! The supposedly custard bao had a sweet corn paste instead of the typical salty egg yolk ones:( oh well, and the filling luo chu lai too:( but overall it was still yummy despite the clumny and corn sweetened paste!

We ordered the must have siew mai and har kow which was fine too!

Xiao long bao had the typical xiao long bao taste with just like a few drops of soup? and it was sub standard.

The Chee cheong fan was the best, we thought it was those typical salty soya sauce but instead it was refreshing sweetened sweet smelling paste, it was really delicious and special! Must try!!!

We had guo tie too cuz i was kinda craving for schools' ban mian set which came with the big meaty fried guo tie. But this was dry and the meat was hard and clunky:( BIGGG disappointment!!!

We were appalled when we were served in containers for our drink. But do not be deceive by its looks. It's actually really refreshing and not diluted at all as it comes with small bits of jelly! Oh is honey lemon by the way! First dish was our pork porridge which was silky smooth and peppered which lots of porky!!!:)

Cant wait to eat more yummy stuffs in the future with patrick!:) hoorayyy