work work work

worked with lynn,shkk,molly,joey,baoying today:)

it was quite fun cuz i was in the childminding section wif lynn. lol. but the rest didnt enjoyed it cuz they were practically doing saikang like ushering and registration, like those damn boring job, though is quite good money, but they don enjoy it la. oh well, kinda felt guilty when i saw shkk sad little faceee :(

so there was like many kewties there, lynn and I had a fetish for this ultra chubby, freaking adorable, innocent boy:) we call him ahpui, but his name is actually call darren. he is mix i think. yup so we interacted with him alot, like i ask him where should i colour, i told him my fav colour is green and after that i ask him whats my fav colour, i think he forgot and he just changed the subject. LOL. so kewt. he always ask us "wheres pink?" "wheres blue?" but it would always be found in that crayon box, sooooo kewt!

then we went to some old hawker at bedok to nom nom nom.

went back home and saw my relatives, super awkz and i was super sian so i just went to sleep, i woke up around 5.30 pm and hooray, there were lesser ppl, i love it when there is just like a small group of ppl, is much easier to communicate and bond la, so i toked to ahmeijiejie, and intro her to hay day! she loves it too! <3 then walked around the house and begin to fill up my tumtum. teehee.

today wasnt that bad as what i expected <3

oh and im kinda happy too cuz i thought of a really cool and unusual teambuilding activity for the CL camp, just hope everyone likes my idea:) prays hardddd :(

rant

been wanting to post this fml ish post for really really long. its holidays, i've been yay-ing for like a few hours, but today, im like mehhh, is friday, and i needa go back for np. and like all my close friends are in jc or in other polys, and their exams and a's are not over yet:( today, i feel lonely, sad, tired of everything, not enjoying a single bit of this holiday i have been looking forward too.

I kinda miss a few of my poly friends, i have yet to share with them abt how much i dread going for np nowadays, yet to share with them f2f kind, we were able to tok anything under sun when going for lectures/classes, those long routes... haish:( need to speak f2f to someone about it. I kinda miss them, and i really am feeling lazy to plan outings, im planning abtm2 with chuwen and sasa, but kinda disheartened cuz they are quite bz and they dont give prompt responses, but i cant blame them la, they are stil schooling and still have alot of commitments unlike me, slacking about in my holidays. But hopefully, our thurs will still be successful.

Needa go retail theraphy soon too.

so here it goes, i kinda lost the drive in np.

I love Np, there are so many memories that nv fail to make me smile or be spirited. The ups and downs when I was a cadet, as an nco, the bonds, the camps I forged, is soooo gawd damn unforgettable. The friendships I made in oev, area camps, activites, cibtc, plentiful, but i think all of us are drifting apart, like i wont take initiative to date them out anymore. But still I miss them and i know they will always kept in a special place in their hearts <3

Nevertheless, I thought when I join back NP as a CI, bonds like this will also keep me going, however, it really sux, i feel so detach from **** * and beatty, soso detach...dread going back, i don even feel the joy when they achieved gold cuz im not involve in anything and i dont plan too.

My fav bearbear:)

ootd

Cny day2! Nth much jus felt like posting my ootd:) daisy crop is the only item that is brand new on me. Although we are suppose to wear new stuffs during cny, but i jus cant b bothered, today is such a sloppy tired lazy day:( love it alot but just that the bust area, underarm part is abit too tight, which squashes and presses my extra underarm fats out:( I WILL TONE THEM ONE DAY!!!

huat arh

happy chinese new year:) tbh, i am not hyped abt cny at all, cuz im always socially awkward wif my relatives, like there is no bond, no kinship feel, there is just this weird, stagnant, boring, different channel, fakish aura, and every yr, without fail, im like super sian, like seriously, i cant stand boredom so im damn meh over there. i only love the holiday, money and food part, but unfortunately, im having exams now.... so yup, no holidays for me:(

OOTD:) 

yup! so i wore this aline pink daisy dress, i think is abit too flouncy, hate to flouncy stuffs cuz is like quite "bombastic" feel, and i wanted to tie up my hair so i brought this neon yellow hair tie, my shoes are suedish maryjanes platforms. not wedges( not the mainstream one okay! ) is platforms, in navy blue:) and it has a thicker strap then the mainstream ones:)

gonna basked in this soon :) choco chocloatey :)

one of the fav snack at home:) cheesey, cruchy, buttery, soft, crumbly:)

 

 

 

 

Lost a friend:(

Mix feeling now. I jus lost like one of my closest bestie. His not dead! Is like .... Ohwell. So, typical me was bullying him, asking him abt he and t, like is my style wad. My character. I have been pestering abt this for ages. Cuz im curious. Im curious and childlike. I knw it myself, everyone knows it, nobody doesnt. And then he jus started scolding me harshly and just vulgared at me, and im like what the hell did i do. He started accusing me of being a big mouth blablabla. Homaigawd. Cant take it. He jus spoilt my night. And as i tot i was able to study, im now rotting on the bed. Wtf. Did i do!?!?

exams are coming :(

been procrastinating so much lately, i really dont get the keynesian and fiscal policy part;( is so hard. i hate macroecons. >:( had some sucky thoughts abt np and all, dun feel that attach, that close, to them, cept for beatty peeps and a few other joyous ppl i met when i was a cadet, and oh gawd, i really miss gladys and everyone in cibtc:( gladys have been kinda dao recently, like i tried to tok to her on wapp, date her, but it always fail, prolly cuz she's busy with exams i guess:( but is somewhat disappointing la, cuz im like always one-sided, always trying to date her and all. she's like really one of the good friends i can ever have :( though we jus know for months but i really enjoyed her company and really am very happy with her:) she such a fun and witty friend!


went to study wif sarah that nite, it was kinda productive and i wanst even sleepy till 2am, it was super impromptu and we decided to jio gerard:

chance upon this, it sooo kewttt <3 but im like so broke now:( but i really like this iphone cover. i like the baby one and the papa one and the mommy one.

TOODLES

MADDDDDLOVEEE

Everything is sooo dreamyyyy and pweetyyy. Esp that sparrowish dress!!! I HAVE THE HYPE FOR SPARROWISH DESIGN STUFFS NOWWW:( i reeeely reeely lub that dresss:((



Toodles<3