good friday

went for preps on wed, it suck my balls. i felt so depressed, outcasted, lonely, insignificant, and i wanted to just run away and dig a small hole every single minute in school. shkk wasnt there. molly didnt really talk to me much, like she kept hanging out with joey and all. like wtf. she keep pangsehing me la. like she didnt wait tgt to queue up with me, she jus mia-ed like for 10 mins while i just sit down alone, sombre, quietly, feebly, i hated such feeling, the feeling of being alone and awkward in situation.

i havent went for many preps, hence, it was really awkz, like they suddnly accepted so many new people, whom i dont feel attach to, is not like a family anymore, dj milk is super different, i dun feel excited, fun, happy in such a cliche cliqish environment, thought of quitting baoc too.

today i went for sc games trial, it sucks too. but luckily, i had shkk, so we jus dinez at fish manhattan, i knw it is a great big sin to eat during good friday but i jus dunn wanna spoil the fun, i wanna bond with her and have more like a quality time with her so i can rant my sorrows and woes to her.

feel so distant from molly already. shes getting so pops that even jfoo knows her, and tiny, like they were calling her name out, kinda feel sour, i think is jealous, i mean who wouldnt be jealous, i think i just dun have the luck and charisma to attract people and be fun and hype like i used to be. totally lost those characteristics :( haish. but i dun care la. like now im so distant to her, kinda feel sad too. she was like my bestie in poly. and kinda dread when sch re opens, shes gonna basked in more attention and im gonna be pangsehed since she's like same class with a few of her new zulus friends. so oh well.. tata.

life is full of ups and downs, i jus need time to adapt to such changes, but thank god, i have shkk whom i know who will be there for me :) i cant wait to start afresh in a new environment after poly.