IDARE SQUIDWARD

This post is strictly gonna be dedicated to IDARE MARCH'13.
it turned out better than i expected
I expected the following:

1) pop kids in my grp
2) many ppl of different frequencies
3) hyped like siao sc who will be bias and all
4) boring
5) no attachment at all
6) not gonna forge true friendships

i was all wrong. I have the following now:
1) forged a few true friendships that i knw is gonna last for real long
2) only a few peeps of different frequencies, i mean like i cant have everything i want so im already very lucky to find ppl whom i can laugh with and understand better
3) fun ttm
4) somewhat attachment in the grp; like there were still a few pop kids, but not many, mostly were made up of same genre as me, so i was still able to have fun with the rest, but i was feeling lazy and tired throughout and i kinda regretted such attitude; i have been like that since poly started and i hope such lame and bad habits would stop:(
5) excellent sc <3

my sc was really da bomb. nam like told me he was gonna be the best sc and everything but i kinda like mehhh cuz i tot pops ppl r gonna be bias and cocky la. but he was like damn humble i think and he included everyone, like there was just this warmth feeling and the genuine and sincere personality portrayed out to all of us. we jus feel so spirited and fun whenever he address us. will always miss his bobs and swag lil dances, fun, h2h and all <3

and im just tearing when im writing this, i dunno why, i actually told shkk i dun feel attach attach, and didnt really enjoyed enjoyed myself kind of thing, but like i still feel damn sad. keith asked wassit happy or sad feel? i didnt knw wad to say, i was like tanking myself but tears just trickled, is like loosing all of them again, like we cant have a camp tgt ever again and everyone is gonna go seperate ways, i mean thats wad always happen after the hyped of the camp, im just so afraid to loose everyone :( i am like a super sentimental person and i knw idare memories would be etched deeply in my heart.

like there were a few true friend i made, like hongkai, yishin, patrick, isabelly, qikai im gonna miss all of them:( yishin was like my bestie, she was always there for me and all, i didnt expect to be close friends with her, but we jus have the same frequency, she could just read off my mind. she always there for me, held my hand whenever there were rocks and stuffs and have never said "no" to me to all my silly requests and wants, her existence had made my idare trip too. <3

next there was hongkai, he shared stuffs abt moon <3 he was kind of the silly super innocent, kewt little boy kind of thing. his stories are lame but like his effort was really there. he was always making effort to make the atmosphere cheery and exciting thought sometimes it failed. when i was sitting beside him and keith like said smth like "laura how u feeling", i jus got so emotional and kried again, and like hongkai was like i sing for u, and he did many stupid things to cheer me up.

and there was patrick whom i bullied alot and small talked alot.

and there qikai whom always teased me and small talked alot too.

and there was isabelly whose presence also play a significant role in idare. she really changed and growed and im really proud to have her as my friend #beattyftw she was all quiet, demure and all in sec sch. she's still demure and elegant kind now, but she's slightly more outspoken, though she is still soft, but i knw she's trying <3

love idare march'13