apple banana carrot

Internship is really damn meh and I cant be bothered updating about it, is just too sad to talk about it.
Shall just post a happy picture with this freaking cute jumbo mickey! Is rare to see jumbo balloons like this real life isn't it? :)

Found a really nice and good supplier for my shop and I am really excited about it! So delighted to find cheap deals and dealing with this sweet and patient supplier :)  It is really true how being sunny and happy will also transmit joy to people!! I really hope I can earn some quick bucks via selling some lovely pieces!

I recently bought this pretty crochet bag and I'm really in love with it! Love how spacious and versatile it is, that strap length, the intricate crochet and most importantly, is almost washable! Why almost, cuz the straps are not entirely pvc, the inner side is made out of sudeish-like material, is good since there is like this groove for more support, bad as it feels kinda gross :( but i love it! YAY!

Doings of my mum and dad respectively, okay i think is kinda childish but i really love how funny and thoughtful they are to think of really witty and funny pictures of my favourite bears!!! ERMAGAWD IS MAD FUNNY. Okay, I'm lame :(

Hooray! I really cant wait for end of internship (5 more working days). I might be going for a short trip with my mum and dad! Really eggcited because is gonna be those beachy, sunny, sandy place with cheap food :)

Results

Achieved a gpa of 3.59 and cumulative of 3.08 now, proud to say that I'm at least a 3 pointer instead of the pathetic 2 pointer. However, I'm not really contented with my results though:( I expected like a 3.7 or higher cuz I really wanna do extremely well for my last few semesters so I can enter a better course in university. I really regretted how I persisted in my own way of not wanting to enter uni and all during my early years of poly. WORKING IN THE REAL WORD IS DEFINITELY NOT IN MY TO-DO LIST ANYMORE. Another regret of mine is that I should have tried to enter the 6 months overseas internship, I really wanted to gain more insight and experience but I was too lazy to try and all :(

I MUST NEVER BE LAZY AND TRY MY VERY BEST.
I MUST NEVER BE LAZY AND TRY MY VERY BEST.
I MUST NEVER BE LAZY AND TRY MY VERY BEST.
I MUST NEVER BE LAZY AND TRY MY VERY BEST.
I MUST NEVER BE LAZY AND TRY MY VERY BEST.
I MUST NEVER BE LAZY AND TRY MY VERY BEST.
I MUST NEVER BE LAZY AND TRY MY VERY BEST.

FP really wants me to go to uni and all, he said despite that the course im studying in uni has absolutely no link to Business Studies, it does not matter because ... (okay actually, he didn't really explain clearly) but i think is kinda true. However, I still do not know what I want to do in the future though. But I love and really admire those uniform jobs! I considered every single one of them before but I got very turn-off by all of them as well :(

nurse (the poo and pee, the gory blood etc.)
police (the gory stuffz, dead bodies etc.)
firefighter (actually i do not mind like the running and all but what if my contacts melt in the fire :( )
doctors (out of my reach academically, the gory blood etc.)
army (my really kiddy voice would definitely be laughed and I doubt i have that manly aura either :( )
paramedics (again, the gory stuffz)
pilot (i guess its for guys :( )
stewardess (my figure is just cmi, but im trying to loose weight and all now.)


yup thats about it! If I do not have such fears, I would definitely love such jobs as it really makes me feel confident about myself and I would surely appreciate and treasure these jobs! BUT...

STILL I WILL TRY MY VERY BEST TO OVERCOME SUCH FEARS.

Specialised in different options with patrick :( we are gonna be seperated for one full year and im gonna be an awkward tortoise with no friends :( sian

 Skype with Yishin last night and we skyped really long and all :) really miss her alot, love how comfortable i can be with her despite silences and love gossiping and exchanging delicious gossips too :)  She gives alot of comments and insights on my respective views and I really love listening to her thoughts and advices! She is just like chang! But the more demure and optimistic kind :) HAHAHAH

Intern teacher is coming to visit me tomorrow too:) I cant wait! YAY

TATA

An Awkward Meal

Had a really awkward dinner last night with the jh and friends at Grub. I just kept staring at my plate and poking my food. I ordered Grub Hotdog which was great :) I guess all the food at Grub are really tasty and sweet smelling, I love how they seasoned their food and all. I took a mini slice of this portobello mushroom and it was superb. I dont really like mushrooms as they have this weird mushy smell which really irks me alot, but this portobello mushroom does not smelt like that as some peppery spices covered it! The side of the mushroom, some mix tomato and salad was really flavour-ful and delicious! Hence, despite the awkwardness, I enjoyed the food though:)

I think they kinda sense my awkwardness too, especially when I lied to them about a meetup with a friend later on.. oh well! I really did not expect the coming of the "2 special guest" too! Nevertheless, I could feel that they really put in damn alot of effort to make me feel comfortable, welcome and love, but its just so-not-their-style! HAHAHAH. I guess partially its just me, me and my ridiculous thoughts!

Oh, plus i had my m. Seriously hate m >:(


tata

hate my intership

I am not suppose to rant anything about my internship on social platforms, but i did not state where exactly i am interning at so who cares! Here it goes!

I feel like a bangla worker, sai kang warrior, patient, tolerable, efficent worker. My supervisors were not very friendly towards me, they were cold and like one of them indirectly scolded me for not copying down notes! "I expect you to have super good memory or else I will be like I told you this before and why didnt you copy it down" my gawdddd!!! 

Had to check their database and note any errors of their membership systems. 

Mini holiday

My f21 loots are hereee:

Really love all the pieces, they fit me so well and im glad i need not sell any of them! Usually when i purchase from the f21 spree, items bought was not as flattering as i expected. Oh well! Really eggcited to wear my looootssss!!!:) the boho crochet top is really special, arm holes are reasonably sized and does not show much of my bra if no tube is worn! Typical tops in f21 have really huge armholes and i hate them because i dread wearinf tubes!! The pj polka dot pants fit me well too! I thought it might be too tight at my thighs but yay! It wasnt! Oh! Really comfortable fit for the navy cardigan, just hope it will not furr too much! The highwaist shorts are shredded reallt nicely and not super short kind, just that was a tiny weeny disappointed with the buttoned fly:( thought it would be zipped up style! Ohwell! Goood fitting though!! Yay

Went with regine to smu for open house and attended the acc talk, it was so boring. However, the school looks dark and cold though. Like there is no open house hype as compared to ngee ann :( and they adopt the america based learning, no tutorials or lectures. I doubt i will get used to this though since ngee ann is like a british based learning, and I have gotten use to the style already and kinda like this style despite the competitions. Oh well. AND MY FREAKING GPA IS SO LOUSY and i doubt i can even get in to smu, not to mention prestigious ntu/nus :(

Before that went with regine to habitat for a sumptous brunch, kinda regret ordering cheese toast, should have just ordered big ben (sausages, scrambled eggs etc.) AND YAY! We had truffy fries! Love them!!

Tomorrow is start of internship, dreading it :( there goes my holidayyyy :(

Toodles

all things nice and daisy:)

the letter to thy guy

suppose to be studying for my exams:( but oh well, cant keep procrastinating so decided to do something fruitful and enjoyable instead.
today is 14feb, in commemoration of valentine's death, yours truly shall write a letter to my future husband!!!!

Dearest blablabla,

thanks for tolerating my nonsense and my "child-like ness", not sure if im still as child-like as i am( i am currently 18 btw). im child like, but not childish okay! I tend to be awkward with people really easily and think alot about how people perceive and feel about me, hence, the awkwardness, so sorry if i made you caught in between your friends/families, nevertheless, i believe that being awkward is a terrible and horrible thing, i would definitely try my best to kick away this stupid part of me.

pinterest has also been my inspiration board, i pinned many of my to-dos and likes in it, so hopefully that can be ur guide to plan surprises/gifts for me! hooray! i really love surprises but im super good at spoiling it cuz i think alot, and get suspicious super duper easily, i think i get sensitive over things more than typical girls too!! But that's me! i like being suspicious, i like thinking, i like to think deeeeeeeeeeeppppppppp.

be terribly kind to my parents, love them as much as your own parents or more than that. i know this is selfish cuz ur parents are also ur benefactory, they clothed you well, they brought you up to a fine man but i hope my parents can be at least on par with them because i wanna really provide them with all i have, i know they would feel terribly lonely without me cuz im like their only child and they are super sentimental, so i hope you would work hand in hand with me, and double the love for them. Hence, i hope i wont feel caught in between your parents and mine. gosh, this part is turning my eyes watery :(((

get a stable job pleaseeeeeee! dun starve me :( branded and expensive stuffs are never needs nor wants in my life, maybe occasionally? i super duper prefer cheap thrills and handmade stuffs!!!

oh and the thing about being faithful, i know typical girls want their husbands to like love them till they die or something, but in reality, i doubt so, even when guys are married, even though they dont cheat, they still watch porn and lust over these women. Hence, idgad if you cheat on me, just dun ever let me know, dont ever let people around me know and DONT EVERY TREAT ME DIFFERENTLY, dont every treat me coldly when you have other woman outside, just pretend nothing happens and dun you dare break my heart! i will keel you >:(

i really loveee excitment and surprises(cant emphasize more on that) and things are are different, like i hate mainstream stuffs. oh and i love traveling but definitely not the package tour, so unromantic and hectic. double hate them.