Piano Exam

screwed for my piano exam. as in really screwed. not those kind whereby people say their exams are damn screwed cuz they did not study and all or they did not know how to do many questions, did not understand all the qns etc. when i say im screwed for an exam, i really did a very very very very very very very bad job, infinte amount of "verys" cannot describe my performance just now:(

it was atrocious, outrageous, a failure, disappointing. I was not even a befitting grade eighter at all. I lacked confidence in all my pieces, scales, sight readings and aural:( I kept rubbing my hands and sweeping my hair away from my face. The most confidence piece, (twist in polka), which i thought i will not and will never make any obvious mistakes when I showcased that piece during the exam, was very much a disappointment too. I repeated a few bars because I played wrong notes and I had many many slips:( actually was quite proud of my scales, just that I played the wrong chromatic scales which that ang mo told me to replay. She only told me to replay once for the chromatic and not other scales and appregios so I assume the rest i played are correct, or maybe not... can't really remember cuz i was very nervous and my confidence was far far away from me :( aural was the worse i think, totally sang out of tune and did not understand her strong ang mo slang, and i was too nervous to focus or asked her to repeat. After the whole ordeal ended, I sprang out of the room and immediately cried.. yeah.. shameful:( then my dad was like what happen and all..

I HATE IT WHEN PPL ASKED ME QNS WHEN IM KRYING?! YOU WANT ME TO REPLY YOU AT THIS POINT OF TIME?! SO STRESSED UP ALREADY AND THEN KEEP BOMBING ME WIF SO MANY QNS. OBVIOUSLY EVERYTHING WAS SCREWED SO I KRIED RIGHT?! THEN WHAT! THE ANG MO BULLIED ME AND GAVE ME A SCOLDING?! RIDICULOUS LA.

People should be more sensitive and have better softskills, or probably is just my father, or probably cuz he is a guy, or probably cuz every typical parent is like this, oh well... i dont know. But whut i know is that, when i kry in school due to poor results, my friends will just comfort me and not ask me any silly qns like "WHAT HAPPEN?" "WHAT DID YOU WENT WRONG" "DID YOU DO YOUR BEST" ETC. 

so yeah.. in the car. I just anyhow bombed him that I dun understand what the person was toking, so he started giving me a mini lecture abt how i always bochap things. wts ttm. then back at home, obviously, my swollen eyes gave me away and my mum started asking what happen again(obviously i flung the exam) then my dad was like she everything also bochap, nv ask the ang mo what she is toking, dk wad "zi zuo zi shou" etc. I was at a rage and just yell at him that whut i said was to shut him off! then he started saying that he didnt know that and what i lied to him balbalbala. wheres ur eq dad?! probably in np, they really thought us good softskills, my eq is kinda high(ithink), so obviously i will be disgusted if ppl's eq are not up to my eq la. cuz eq to mee is kinda common sense. so when my dad was nagging outside the living room i just pushed my index finger to my ear hole to block the sound( yeah, try it, it really works), and took deep breaths.

Thereafter, my parents and I went to fetch chuwen from cjc, really fascinated to be in the carpark of a jc though. we headed to sasa's house for her ah ma's wake it was also my first time attending a wake that is held in a house. her aunties were all very friendly and all even though sasa and her mum was not there. apparently, sasa's cuzzies recognised me:) teehee. kinda shocked and they look so tan and pweety <3  ketchup wif chuwen and sasa, it was really really good, like heartwarming kind of feeling. We went to the playground and chill and all. h2h talks are always the best! it somehow cured my disappointment for my piano exam just now:) oh! and sasa's mummy spilt out all those secrets to my mum and dad so yeah, kinda not feel special anymore, I tot i was the only special person who knows all about sasa's family secrets but now my parents knows too, oh well..

Oh! And i bot this neon lime skirt from lrh! Is super super pretty but damn scared it looked kinda "hardcore" on me! Ohwellllll