fuck this shit man. seriously. damn buay tahan of this period of tormenting life i needa go through. as i was writing out some maec notes. my dad came in and started complaining then i only knw how to bs and play com and all, and didnt play the piano. what the fuck. seriously. it was the holidays right, i totally need a break, and piano is like, u need feel to play, if im unhappy, i hv no feel, i will just anyhow play and sulk through the practice, im barely not even practicing since im not even enjoying and putting in the feelings for my pieces. fuck this to the max. and i told him before that my mum always does that, and that will like make me hate piano even more, fucking feel like smashing the keyboard and burn this burden instrument.
my studies are all in the mess and they only know how to ask here ask there, nag here nag there, why cant u jus leave me alone in peace. i need a break alright. i hv already spent my precious dec holidays going china wif u all and like bonded wif u all, it was seriously a fucking waste of time and i fucking didnt enjoy it, i had to put on a brave smile, that stupid fucking fake mask and look as if i enjoyed the whole fucking trip. what kind of life is that man. my holiday breaks are not enough alr and i seriously need a long escapade away from this shit life.....
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