IDIDNTFAILPOA

soooo munchin, kiefer and I played the rank the ppl game ytd, it was so damn funny, come to think of it, I have nt seen/made any kewt friends in ngee ann yet, hmmmmm... oh! and I watched poseidon on funshion, ohmygawd, it was damn naice and the dad sacrificed for his daughter, can feel the love yo! and i kinda dao my ec. and ohmyshit,  i daoed him for like 1 hr plusplus, and he replied ko to me. HAHAHAHA. OKAY. THIS IS DAMN LAME

so i woke up at 7 today, results are gonna be released at 8. so i tried to sleep again, so yeah! at 8 i went to npal, is much better then wad i expected, i expected like a 2. 1 plus for my gpa, but yahoooo, i got a 3.0, but is not really fantastic, actually is damn lousy, but im quite contented, gonna mug and be like a nerd next sem and following sems:) and i tot im gonna fail miec or blaw too, but yay! i didnt. so since im not gonna have a screwed timetable, i decided to retake my grade8 piano:( yeah:( but. YEAH!:)

went for np today, it was still fun, but i think the cadets kinda quite friend wif me, or they abit gonggong, like i was asking C, what is he doing? is he coaching W? then he was like, nope, im looking at W, then K was like yeah! he eye powering, then C said yeah! eye power, so i was like so wad do u think you can do now, is eye powering useful? then he was like there was no instructions, then I went to look for CL so CL was like yup, he teaching him, and now we doing ten guy loop(smth like this), seriously.... hello! C is like eye powering and the correct and model "answer" is to prac his tent guy loops since he is not helping R, mehhh...  prolly peeps might think Im trying to gl cadets or being damn ridiculous but this is definitely not my behaviour/attitude if my CI is gonna question me, and i dun rmbering eye powering this cc lessons, i kept on prac and prac cuz i was damn scared i cannot get the hang of it, and so did the rest of my squadmates, ohwell, kids nowadays,

 prolly this is  bcuz either my el is damn poor, or they just trying to be funny, but somewhat guangliang sometimes dun get wad im trying to say so prolly gonna work on my language and built up some confidence! yay! but parade was quite screwed today i think, and mm did not want to address any issue though, i was quite disappointed cuz i tot he would definitely motivate and push our CL s, cuz when i was a cadet, he never fails to inspire me and make me feel that YEAH! I NEED TO PUSH AND STRETCH MYSELF!

went to coach P on his drills today, actually i think he has alot of potentail even though he skipped np for months/years, but he still can rmb many basic drills which really shows that he has some "xiao chong ming", yup, and he is quite a fast learner too, and at least he shows me some respect.... nope, not some, is alot.

pon np dinner with the ci's today, also dk why but felt that i need some retail therapy.... teeheehee:)

exams

I failed my piano exam. i kinda expected it but im really very sad about it cuz i know i really practiced and practiced and practiced and practiced until there s no end. and i got a super bad feeling that i will fail my poa and have to re take my module. Endless tears just keeps trickling down and trickling down like non stop. supposedly had a dinez date with my friends today but i just cancelled it, i think im gonna sulk for a year again. so many freaking things happen this year, if you think positively, they are very very good stepping stones for me to grow and mature, but if you think negatively, they are just pieces of shitz that pile up that make you depress like shit. im taught and mould to think positively but I just can help thinking the negative side, trying my best to hold back my tears and all, but I just cant stop feeling ashame of myself. I feel so damn freaking guilty towards my parents and my piano teacher, piano is sooo damn freaking expensive and like think my dad just throwed like 10k plus into the sea for only my grade 8 exam, and my teacher... yeah.. and so many people knew i took piano exam and then if i told them i failed, is like ...

anyway, the shit feeling im having now, is not the first time, psle, olevels, sam. yeah, it happened thrice. Now, the feeling is somewhat numb now and i just cant wait to leave this freaking earth.

Np chalet ftw

Jus came back from np chalet! We had games stations and i was one of the ic. I kinda make a boohoo bytelling a grp that my station was one instead of 2! So yup partly kinda screwed cuz of me i think:( ohwelllllll. But it was fun still! But i was alr quite dampen when setting up cuz i was to guard this silly boxes of drinks at this bench and stoned there for hrs. Plus my phone low batt so i cannt waste it! And i think ggl cant really work under stress, as in he is a good leader but he will b quite impatient and sometimes will like do silly things like asking me to guard the drinks which he can mayb set up the drinks station last so we have more manpower and it will be more productive and efficient in setting up the rest lf the stations, and he was quite angsty wif jh, so yeah..

Then tc came, lol. Everybody outcasted the slacker, whole time he wanted ppl to buy alcohol and drink and it was so freaking ex. Like 1 220 ml johnny walker redlabel cuz like 40 plus bucks, bt some donkies still bought and shared wif him and ofc i coped! He bot like 3 bottles! But ae mixed in wif coke, jus that the last bottle. Almost half of it we drank it pure. Then he keep saying we nt steady blablabla, other chalets they will drink like siao, but hello, there s cadets here and is like an npcc event. Stewpid ridiculous! But ohwell, kinda feel guilty for being so mean to him also.

Hahahah. Then we played silly games like fuzzy wuzzy and black magic. Luckily i wasnt the last person to figure out the tactic! Hahaha heng zx came! And zx has ec siolllll! And N was at the chalet too and I was shouting at thetop of my voice" WAAA ZX HAS EC!" lolololol

And then there s ronald, he kinda pissed me off at times, cuz i was wearing fbts, i had no pockets and his berms had like big pockets so i aske him to help me keep it. And then he will b like walau ur cover so dirty and sticky... Then was oh sam wont call u meh? Then everybody gave him the walau look, i think he just trying to be funny lor. But yeah he should learn to use words properly, but anyway, he was quite brooder to acc till quite late cuz he actually wanted to go home early!:) And it was damn awkward wen ggl said that we forever fighting non stop! Like mehhhh...he has ktt!

Tmt was there too! Then yeah! Kept gl ing me. Oh! And we played the chilli chilli thing again! Those ol days! But it was just a short while. Luckily there were nt much cadets and laojiao were at the other side of the chalet so heng! Ahahja and i think he was the mastermind of singing a birthday song for me! It was quite heartening to c
All nco 10/11 tgt under the moon lit, clapping and talking abt stewpid things! And ls even used his feet to
Clap! HAAHAHAHHA!

Jeffrey came! Actually he didnt wanna stay too! But haahhaha i pushed
Him and pleaded him for extension! And he was damn naice! He baked oreo cheesecake and helped us cook! He was suppose to lax and let cadets cook now but i think the cadets like mixed up the tongs and didnt really knw hw to bbq so he quite welfare us yo! Kinda feel guilty for nt givin him
Much attention too! HAHAHA but yeah! Too bad! I ren yuan tai hao! No time
To ketchup wif each and everyone! I really enjoyed the time! The gathering made me feel closer and attached to my squad as well as wanting to push myself to further limits! Anyway, benson taught me many tactics abt dealing wif cadets and many softskills' i kinda didnt really thought well of him
When i was a cadet but today, i gradually started to respect him
As a ci! NPCC FTW

TOODLES!

A mini Date with Jolyn

Today i had an impromptu date with myself! Yup, so, i went to sell this jansport bag to a girl, cuz i think jansport is too common now, so i dunn wanna be the same! I wanna be OUTSTANDING, DIFFERENT! YOU KNOW! So i decided to head to plaza sing and basked in the lovely daiso and spotlight!
ATdaiso! I purchased more fabric tapes:) but i bot the wrong lacedesigned so prolly need to go back soon so i can finish furnishing thy roomie!

AtSpotlight! I had a lovely time there! I was amazed, awed, excited all the time. Those little trincklets! They even sell costumes and this very kewt police badges which made me thought of np! Yeah! And they had an array of costumes, fairy like, piratey like, nun like, etc. i was like prancing on every single object in the shop. And at the wood section, i had many inspirations for birthday presents for my friends! Like there was this wooden tissue box, and this wooden drawers, and as i was surrounded by so many arty farty stuffs, i can deco them! Im sure these lucky friends will beere sooo happy! Since im like so pro at art! And yeah!

Ohgosh! THE SCRAPBOOK SECTION WAS FANTISTIC AND AMAZING! i was actually pondering over if i should purchased this a5 size booklet then consist of many diff pweety papers. And they had very cool themes like smth smth gelato which looks pastelish, and vintagey kind and manh many more! It was 14.99! But i decided to abandon that thought so i can save
money to buy more clothesy!

And they even sell bears that you can diy on! I am so gonna buy it one day and dress him up! Yup! My bears are guys/gays:) no gals:)

And i decided to shop around therafter! And i chanced upon this vintageyshop! I actually walked past it and took a glimpse and then i turn around again and when back! So so so in loveee with that place! The atmosphere felt so happy, cheery, sweet! And the music reallysuited the whole vintgey environment. The music played katy perry fireworks song in a softer, slower tempo. The place was all woody!Y FAVOURITE! i practicallycan just lepak at that place all day long!

Since it was an arty farty day, i had to end of with an arty farty night! So! I worked on my room with my tapes! An decided to do some diy crotchety shorts! I snipped off this old long jeans! And yay! That jeans was highwaisted! I didnt knw too! It was giodarno brand actually and i didnt expect giodarno to be so hip to have hw jeans:) teehee! But only when i snipped it, that jeans really felt highwaisty like. But i sort of ruined it, cuz the crotchet inserts were not identical and had alot of differences:( but ohwell:( i actually wanted to wear that for tmrw s chalet but i think ppl is gonna judge since np ppl are less niang, still contemplating if i should report in fbt or jus some old denim shorts.. Hmmmmm...

And HAHAHAHA KINDER FEEL BAD FOR DAOING MADK! HAHAHA HOPE
HE C THIS! BUT HOOKARES! I THINK I FAIL AN SMS BUDDY. I EVEN DAOED MY EC. LOL. NOT IN A MOOD TO USE PHONE NOWADAYS!

TOODLES!

Stepping stones

 

TADA! THATS MY SECOND HOME! MORE LIKE A PLACE WHERE I FORGED SO MANY MANY MANY FRIENDSHIPS AND HAD TONS AND TONS OF UNFORGETTABLE, SWEET, WARMTH, MEMORIES 

Yup! Today had sgt promotion test with moi cadets:) I planned this test for them, it was really challenging and tough because I had many queries, uncertainties and was very scared upstairs would be disappointed with my performance. Although, I am like of the same"rank" with the upstairs but yeahh.. cuz they are laojiao, i will still feel that terrifying space in between. But i think I kinda gave a mehmeh attitude to upstairs cuz he wanted me to try my best to make some changes to the schedule, his reasoning makes alot of sense and I believe with his reasoning, the test would definitely make me shine and grow confident, but he totally ruined my plan:( Plus, I sent the schedule twice to upstairs and there wasn't any feedback until today so like if I have to extend one activity, another will be affected and so on and so fourth. Also, I came up with this mini task( which I myself thought it was unique, and impressive ) , which is to hone the chairperson's leadership skills by giving him an edited version of my schedule with many instructions in it, and yeah... so all was ruined cuz everything overruned and they overwrited what I said :( which was like :( haish.. oh well, I think is kinda my fault cuz i should have reinforce and "force" them to help me check so i can plan ahead and all.. haish:( HOPEFULLY, they gonna let me plan the next sgt test and IM GONNA LIKE YEAH! YOU KNOW! 

My cadets had their test at the canteen! So there was this group of scouts kids and they were like bang bang bang so noisy, eating their macs, and then I was soooooooo annoyed so I just " Hi sorry, can you keep your volume down cuz my cadets are having a test?" HAHAHAH their faces was like O.O the sorry boss look! HAHAHAH! I damn welfare right?:) but today's test just overruned by a few mins though, not inclusive of debrief, and zooweemama, I didnt expect that I will be doing the debrief cuz I thought I was suppose to take a back seat since I did all the work at the back, but I just smoked through my wayyy, but i think i always smoke but heng my favourite, inspiring story saved my life:) I think that stories are like the best way to inspire you, bring across a message, reinforce the values etc.  plus like who will really listen to scoldings? seriously, just one ear in one ear out.. ohwell, but is ug, so there is still a need of a tinge of scoldings and truckoads of firmness. 

and tralalalala, had a baking date with np peeps at clover! I booked the function room and it was super troublesome though:( but quite fun! there was like chao ta cookies and I was like lets disguised them with icing sugar! yay! HAHAHA I CANNOT WAIT FOR THE CHALET THOUGH! I HOPE CHANG WILL COME ASAP. BUT  I CANT REALLY LET LOOSE CUZ THERE ARE MANY CADETS SO MUS MAINTAIN ABIT:( BUT I THINK IS GONNA BE FUN! LAST YR I ENJOYED IT! BUT I HOPE WE WILL HAVE THE ROOM FOR THIS YR:(  

sooooooooo today I had this red camp interview, I was super lethargic, like nua diao, I slouched, i yawned, my eyes were like -.- the what  you want look. HAHAHAH then ohyeah! made friends with this gal from bio med! SHE WAS FROM SAINT NICKS SEC EH! AND NPCC ALSO! THEN I WAS SO DAMN EGGCITED AND JUMP AND LIKE OMG OMG U KNW WHO IS BLABLABALA, then she was like ahahahah why u so excited, i tot typical saint nick gals will be even more hyper than me but ohwell:( but she was quite naice though, and then there was this guy, like mix blood, nam's friend, he was damn cool, got the swag and he taught us this cheer, SINESINE COSINESINESINE COSINESINE 3.14129. WE WILL WIN THE WAR WE WILL WIN THE WAR WE WILL WIN THE WAR ALALLALALA DAMN GOT SWAG!!! IT WAS STUCK IN MY HEAD LIKE UNTIL A FEW HOURS AGO. He is those popular kind of kiddo, yr 3, bs too! should have made friends with him too, I think he was like standing at one side, waiting for me to approach becuz i was very curious abt his sine sine cosine cheer and kept forgetting the 3.14129, all some weird numbers. ahahah yeah. but i dun really think i will get in though:( cuz I made alot of blunders and did silly things, and not really outstanding and ohwell. Im too distracted by the movie-pretty woman, toodles

OTOT

was supposed to go to gardens by the bay with julie and munchin today:( but julie's mummy was sick so yeah.. she cant make it, and we decided to postpone our date to oct:( mehhh....

but had an impromptu(AGAIN!) outing wif my mehmeh friend, munchin:) so! oh! and i dao my ec, ohwell, but i think he kinda wanted to keep the convo going, feeling kinda guilty but OI ONCE BITTEN TWICE SHY, and he was like the ec that i was like most craziest about, so yeah! I took a long while to get over his dao-ness! so ONCE BITTEN TWICE SHY!:)

okie, back to my mehmeh friend! so yeah, we decided to head to j8 to watch imperfect. It was a mehmeh show too, not that good, not that bad either,but gv bishan is freezing cold, i need a winter jacket instead:( and I drank passionfruit ice blend:) yumm slurpslurp, didnt eat all the pearls though. actually wanted to dinez wif my oev mates but they cmi, then tried to dinez wif sasa and all but they cmi too:( so decided to get stuck with munchin the whole day!  we went to bras basah to find art friends cuz apparently, jialing told me there were studs there and munching wanted to diy sooooo badly, so! me! being a good friend, decided to pei her go there, and help her source for it :) actually, i did not have the mood to go out(LIKE OUT OF BISHAN KIND), cuz i was damn lazy, and sloppy, and i wore like slippers, highwaist shorts, and nautical chiffon top and yeah, super -.-

but we didnt get anything from art friends but i think munchin liked the place alot:) then we decided to head to plaza sing for daison and spotlight to source for her crochet materials and studdies! but there were no studs! instead, we got alot of pretty fabric tapes and crotchets from daiso, and im so gonna go back to that daiso and plaza sing cuz they have a variety of fabic tapes and crotchets to choose from, and spotlight is like WOW O.O! everything is so neat and there is even an array of fabric, ribbons, laces etc to browse( ART FRIEND'S HAS NO FABRICS)

oh btw, we were able to travel from bras basah mrt station all the way to plaza sing was all becuz of my mighty iphone, GOOGLE MAP! it felt kinda like an adventure in the forest, only it was modernise cuz we had the mighty iphone. On the way, we spotted many pretty, serene, atas, quaint places which are perfect for pictures but we were wearing like some mehmehmeh so we decided to have another adventure on oct again, the places we spotted has the haji lane feel:) quaint quaint, quiet quiet. But we were to eggcited, so we decided to snap a few peektures!

and i diyed my room with some pretty fabric tapes i bought from daiso:) so gonna go there again cuz is insufficient:(

Toodles <3

loots from daiso:)

at art friends, we "shaped" our wooden sculptures:)

 

I was trying to tie my hair for a neater pose and yet my mehmeh friend..:(

diy fabric tape!

 

 

 

 

 

 

diy crochet tape!

SUPERSHOCKYDOCKY

WENT BACK BEATTY TODAY!! GOSH! i was at the gallery and looking down at those kiddos, thinking back about those good old days where i will jus drooped my head and sleep during concerts and all:( gosh! Didnt really catch uped with teachers today. Ony gl missloo alittle, teehee! And she forgot my name and told me to give her my initials:( THATS CHEATING MISS LOO:( ohwell, and miss jamie recognises me frm e2. Quite shocky cuz i didnt expect her to rmb me! Then gosh saw ms tan like everywhere and yeah, i was shouting at my friends at general office and she was there, and yeah.. Xiasuay and awkward ttm. Heard that many good teachers are leaving beatty:( kinda sad though, but once a beattyian always a beattyian <3

So we lunched with regine! It was impromptu too! She jus texted and then we decided to have lunch wif her tgt wif weiwei n jl. So yup! It started off tensiony cuz ohwell cant b bothered to say( walls have eyes! Oh wait or isit ears?) so i pretended nth happen n jus bladder bladder and tok! Then jl n kimberley had to leave early and then left me and regine:( hahahha! And we had an impromptu movie! STEP UP REVOLUTION! THE GUY WAS DAMN BUFF AND GOODLOOKING! AND THE GAL WAS DAMN HOT AND SMEXY N KEWT!! Their dances were incredibly awesome, cool, poppingish, creative! Everytime after a step up movie, i got the impulse to go and learn to dance/ prac my piano like siao and try to b a superb pianist one day! Before that movie, regine went popular! Oh! And there was this super kewt guy from
Kcp! His eyes! His nose! Gosh likeakewl only! And his built was omg kind!!! When he crossed his arms and stand there, i was googling up down left right at him. His complextion was not very good but pass la! But his build was the best! Buff but nt the buff till
So disgusting kind! Then, had h2h tok we regine at the libby!

After the movies, i was quite tired alr and wanted to go home but zooweemama! We saw rachel and her clique! Then i jus stand there and pointed and pointed and ehh look eh look! Then yeah! Had a mini reunion wif rachel! Then snap some peektures and oh! My blouse was too short and i zaogeng:( and i was damn scared it will Come out again so i kept stuffing it in:( and to my horror, they were spamming pics of me:( ohwell. Though i was nt very close to rachel s clique, but i was quite elated upon seeing them cuz got the beattyian bonded feel! Ooooyeah!

On my way back, saw jianlong and pamela, lol quite awkward. But yeah when is saw pam, i was like OI OI OI damn loudly and wanted to ketchup wif her but she kinda dao me so i jus okay-go-home mood.

Oh and i wore ttr paisley top! is kinda like my fav top now, many ppl complimented on the top:) only weiwei told me it looks auntish:( oh well! Hookares. Would love it to bits if it is totally non sheer, and the lacey part is like crotchety design and now rosey designs:) and my hw was actually fresh from the washing machine:) but i tried to iron and fan it so it will dry quickly, cuz thats like the best bottom to pei wif the top! And i wanted to wear long jeans so yup! Was contemplating to wear the neonprene from lrh but scared ppl judge:( so boooo didnt wear:( but is very pweety too! Lovely little pleats!

HAIRPEE TEACHERSSSIE DAY!!!