Friday, 12 October 2012

Cash and Reminisce

Have been spending quite alot lately, like okay god damn alot, i think amounted to 200 dollars for this 2 weeks :( went to like atas places for meals with my buds and spent like tons of money on clothes. Since im schooling in poly, clothes matters alot. There are like judgey eyes looking at you every second as one walk pass you. ( who don't judge, i mean i always do, secretly, inside me )

In poly, firstly, there's the nerds, the wannabes, the trying to not be nerd but damn fail kind, the high profilers and the in-between. If one falls in the "nerds" category, one is gonna be like a loner forever, one would not be able to taste true friendship and forge strong bonds with one's poly mates, and get gossiped all becuz of one's appearance. The worse thing that can happen in poly is eating alone/seating alone in class. Walking alone is fine cuz the campus is so big and one has different activities from the others. The awkwardness and loneliness if one is eating/seating alone is horrifying, is going to stay in you and your teenhood is gonna suck. OHGOD! I pray with all my heart I will not fall into that category!!!

Though I have been spending alot on clothes and stuffs but I always ensure that I get the cheapest chics:) These are some of the loots I got:

 My bottom is a suede highwaist paperbag cigar pants for like 10 bucks :O Holy mama, reseller claims is bnip, it smells brand newish too. The material is suede, super duper cool material, different from the typical jeansies.
My top is a slouch( IS 14 I THINK, BN TOO) , the blue is not the kind of "pasar malam" blue, is those vibrant blue kind yo, and the material is polyester, not the usual cotton/knit etc. For me, I don't go for the trend, I prefer designs or stuffs that are unusual, different, like a "subset" of the trend kind of thing ( DONT JUDGE )

Recently, I learnt of this philosophy, never regret your decisions as it has brought you where you are today, your decisions will always result to smth good thereafter. Yup, smth like that. I partially agree to this statement, and is somehow, a source of motivation and learning point for me. When I was in pri and sec, friends know me as a cheerful, happy gal. (  I GOT FEEDBACK FROM MANY THAT I AM CHEERY OKAY, EVEN MY REPORT BOOKS STATES SO, AND I HAD NICKS LIKE JOLLYBEAN?? LOL ).

Till poly,  i doubt so ( KELLY AND MOLLY DUN ASK ME ABOUT IT, THIS BLOG IS SUPPOSE TO BE PRIVATE YO ). I think thats why in many poly peektures, I cannot smile properly. I was able to take pictures with a natural laugh or smile in secondary school then now, currently... I remember vividly about the happy times I had back in Beatty <3 When I was in sec 1, I laughed at dm cuz he said smth so silly, i think is somthing related to swimming cuz before that we were all about to leave the class and head towards tpy swimming complex for our swimming module. He timed how long I laughed and it was like 18 minutes plusplus, obviously, the laughs had like short seconds breaks in between but cuz dm was so silly and retarded, I couldnt help laughing at him. When I was in sec 2, i tot my life sucked cuz i was in the worse express class, but nevertheless, the glory, the admiration, the new friendships, the attention i received was just sweettt <3 When I was in sec3, I tot my life sucked cuz many of my close friends were different class from me, but it didnt. Thank god for the bonds I forged in NP, the times we lepaked in NP room, the gossips, cooking mama, indoor cooking, the arguement, the nominal role, the whiteboard, the drawings, the debriefs will be etched deeply in my head. When I was in sec 4, I forged close friendships in my class, the doodles on each other's assesment books, the food, the dreams we shared was just unforgettable. Well, till now, poly still suck though, but it didnt suck as much as starting of the sem, my pov changed for the better after dj milk's food race <3 but nothing can be compared to secondary and primary school.




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