Sunday, 30 December 2012

Last week of the year

Spent my last week of the year with npcc dudes and dudesses. It was indeed fruitful and i kinda miss and ps my other sec and pri friends:(

Went for 2 consecutive campfire preparations. Kinda sad that im not gonna particiate in the actual campfire cuz i hv sch and i dont really hv any significant role in the campfire since i cant even go back on fridays:( kinda sad though:( haish:( feel so useless and bad sometimes when i c my peers all working ethusiastically for the unit, and even willing to pon sch and was also given many significant roles in projects and stuffs like that. Oh well. But it was a good ketchup wif them. Playing and joking around...

Then we went to area chalet. Went tgt wif ggl,kw and ernest. Otw there, blimey, we were super duper quiet, cuz ernest was there. Oh and otw to tpy to meet kw and ggl, ernest and i took the same bus! haahahah and i jus daoed and sit at another corner. Kinda feel bad cuz i think he thinks beatty ppl are like awkward wif him so prolly he might feel extra but oh well, i wasnt in the mood to tok to him also cuz is like my super long pms period:( but shortly after i jus tok to him lor, like some lame topics. But the part i enjoued most was cycling wif kw, ggl, jh, shawn and jiaqi!!:) teeheee! We taught jh how to cycle! But we didnt succeeded cuz we need to go back to the chalet for bingo:( then i ketchup wif jiaqi and we rode on kw and ggl's bike cuz they were bz teaching jh! Hahahaha. Oh lol so funny!!

Oh i saw zhengcheng there too. Blimey that really brighten my spirit. Cuz i love surprises ma! Like holy moly. But the happiness was short la nlol.

Saturday, 29 December 2012

PARTEHHH

Spent 24thdizzember at night with TWQ!! it wasnt very hypey kind cuz it was a super duper las min decision and like 50 percent of the sleepover she was talking to mr eysie:( mehhh, but ohwell!:) is like this! Love can do wondersss!!! So i don really blame her for ps ing me! Bought her kway chaply for supper too!

Oh i love her goat milk soap! Feels like abthing in real milk, so silky and smooth and the smell is very fragrant too, like not the usual typical soapy smell, hate overrated stuffs yo!

Then i had to leave her house at 11 during kristmas and head towards my ah ma house:( so boringgg and my phone batt drained super fast so i use my dad s phone to pinterest:( and they had silly games. Okay actually not that silly, but then the company was not right la, oh there was a hotty too, he kinda look like j but the kewter version:)

And i spent 16 bucks on 2 pathetic faceshop nail polish:( but the colour is really pweety:( damn sad nowww:(

Oh and jus nowi saw ostrich photo on fb, an iwas like hahahha so looser and didnt had that sombre after effect again but ohwell, who knws this effect will last long.



Blablabla. Toodles!!:)





Monday, 24 December 2012

Last kristmas i gave u my heart...

Songwriters: Michael, George;

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

Once bitten and twice shy
I keep my distance but you still catch my eye
Tell me, baby, do you recognize me?
Well, it's been a year, it doesn't surprise me

Merry Christmas, I wrapped it up and sent it
With a note saying, "I love you", I meant it
Now I know what a fool I've been
But if you kissed me now I know you'd fool me again

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

A crowded room and friends with tired eyes
[- From: http://www.elyrics.net -]
I'm hiding from you and your soul of ice
My God, I thought you were someone to rely on
Me? I guess I was a shoulder to cry on

A face on a lover with a fire in his heart
A girl undercover but you tore her apart
Maybe this year, maybe this year
I'll give it to someone special

'Cause last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

And last Christmas
And this year won't be anything like
Anything like

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
And this year to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

Im back

I hope eerything is on track
Saw a kewt steward on the plane and we kept making eye contact cuz i was like at the front seat
Saw x s name on the newspaper. Was nemo a lil but all was fine in e end
I wanna BE BACK ON TRACK.

Tonite i shall parteh and shop and sell y stuffs, cant waitt!!!:)
Todos:
ECP
TANNING
MORE KETCHUPS


Sunday, 23 December 2012

KIRSTMAS EVE EVE!

so damn freaking pissed wif my dad, he is damn petty like siao, seriously...

so i decided to empty my bin before i bathe just now, my rubbish chute at home is like connected to the wall kind, flat against it, so i was hitting my bin towards the tip of the chute la, but since is against the wall, so some parts of the wall was chipped, like there's this rectangular border around the chute, so it looks kinda popping out, like 1cm popping out la, so part of the border was chipped LIGHTLY. and after that i headed to my room, and he oi-ed me 10000 times and scolded and shouted and i was like ya, yes, and he was like oii?! yes what?! "yes la, so u will have no excuse to say im not listening" typical kids will definitely talked back, i mean, is so illogical and stupid, small probs like this, is being dug into a huge mountain, seriously, fml, but i jus ignore and dun care la.. fml seriously

this is not the first time, sometimes i really hate him alot, he is so freaking petty, he like wants perfection or smth, wtf, so wad if he can do it, diff ppl has diff personalitys and all, i myself, i also wont demand ppl to do ridiculous things. he seriously ended my day with a freaking angsty note even though it started of well....

molly cam to my house for bmgt project, it was kinda productive i think, compared to the rest of the projects we did tgt, it was fun too. since i love ketching up, but i think i was having my menses so i was kinda sianz, and down and all la, dk why recently i've been pms-ing alot lately, like skipping class outings, dw go out and all, i bet all these angstyness at home is making me to grow to an old, grumpy, sad, kid.

Off track, some pics from zhonguo





Saturday, 22 December 2012

METUP WITH MY ARMPITZ!

On that day when i was gonna fly to china, i mettup with my dearie grace chiam( boobs ), chang and chen!:) oh im tits so im on top of grace chiam. The other day i was telling chang how sad i felt when grace chiam didnt really contact me anymore, like she didnt take initiative to meet and all, blablabla. But i was super shock when she wapp us abt having a meal tgt! So we had lunch at novena kfc cuz i needa pass jh my ci comfirmation form!! It was a wonderful ketchup, tok abt ec s. stalked some high profile ppl from
Ngee ann, showed out armpits pictures of them. And oh! They agree frankie is kewt, and his dimple is homygawd kind yo!!:) YAY!

Oh and then jh came, and he gave me souvenirs! Super pretty! And i was quite shock cux he was really generous, there were like keychains, nail clippers, friendship band, i really really love the friendship band! Okay actually jh is really generous almost everytime, and nice too. But sometimes he could be quite lame and nasty, but ohwell, nobody is perfect. Really grateful and love his goodies!;)
Oh and jh pass me this damn kewt wooden cart that really works, it was from ls, when he went bangkok thattime.. He forgot to pass us, i love it too! Love woodd!!;) and is really kewt and small!!!:) these guys were really block headed and silly las time(at times too) but m really happy of their sweetness and thoughfulness!!

Shortly after, cuz i needa purchase lip balm do armpits acc me to watson. And lol, we decided to do smth yolo, took pic wif condomn....

Miss them dearly and i really hope to see them soon;(









Sour sally

Had tons of sour thoughts abt ostrich lately :( i need some light and motivation :( have been dreaming abt ostrich at nite, boring rides on the road, those blank and empty pieces of time in the trip, the purpose of me nt going frequently for trips always run in my head when im like on a trip now... Trying to escape from the reality but im still strangling and sinking in. It really hurts:(

Need sasa and chang with me badly:(

DAY1-3 AT ZHONGGUO!!!

The trip started off so freaking angstly cux my mum was like pms-ing and rushing me off like siao. So meh!! She spoilt my trip-.- But ohwell, life is like that. Chuan dao qiao tou zi ran zhi- molly taught meee this!;)

It has been super duper long since i zuo fei ji, so i was kinda eggcited! And i brought my pink fox hoodie! Teehee same as lynn jieee. Lolz.

Everynite and then, i have been toking to molly, lol. So funny. Molly shld feel honoured bcuz she is like always the first friend i wapp whenever i have my freee wifi! Hahaha. Actually im nt spending these holiday soley at guangzhou. The second day i was at another place, holy shit, i forgot the name. I think is ha smth smth. Needa take a 4 hr ride trip to that place. To and fro. And holy moly. That place is freaking cold. It was 5 degrees. I was practically shivering! Like my teeth were like brrrr brrrr brr. But hahahahaha, i didnt tell anybody!! Cuz i was like with my dad s friends. And this kong zi dk wad generation person(whom i think is a fake kongzi generation person) were all smoking. Holymoly. I hate smokers. I mean. Im okay wif smokers. But i hate the cig smell. It was stuffing, unbearable, cancerous!!! We had meals with them for the 2nd and third day. And we were like eating in those private room cuz they regard my dad as some high class guy. Oh and we were forced to sit in the bmw and had a private chauffeur. And then we went to kong zi the zi sun the guy's workshop. He is an artist but he is damn humble and kind looking. But i think he is nt kong zi the zi sun lor. I mean like hello, kongzi is like so up there and his zi sun is so up there too. Who will meet peanuts like meee? Like duh!

Last nite we had this marche style dinner! There were like life snakes, chicken, duck kept in cages and price tags were hung on their cages, there was this seafood farm lookish thingy, there was prawns, fishies, crabbies, lobsties, super marche ish! But is the damn low class marche la. Then i suddnly taught of frankie and billy and our bmgt grp! Lolz.

The second nite when we were at the ha place rite, the hotel was like nice kind. Clean and green! Cuz the kong zi person buy one ma, so mus bring us to atas place. Then when we were back at guangzhou,hotel is kinda like hostel, quite old and dirty. But i dun really care la, this is china. Welcome to china. And my mum keeps complaining and complaining. Lame ttm. I mean she grows up in a kampong. She also not some queen or pampered princess. So disgusting.

Today had a shopping spree! Below are my lootsss!!:) gonna sell some online though:)



Thursday, 13 December 2012

SEETEES ARE OVER!

THANKKKKKKKKK GAWDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

SEEEE TEEEESSS ARE OFFICIALLY OVER!
but still gonna have 5 exam papers next yr, during cny -.- meh

ohwell, recently i have been really pms-ing like so many cranky stuffs happen. And i actually ponned  a class outing, i mean, me, this kind of person would nv pon fun outings like that ( okay actually it isnt very fun cuz very few ppl ) but first outing always counts, as the people will be closer and knitted better than subsequent outing i think, but i actually pon it, i think my brain must have been fried or smth. I hv been kinda emo nemo also, i mean i dont really show la, but like im really damn tired about life, the really idgasf feel. oh well...

oh, and i have been really nice recently, like comforting many friends, and most importantly, really being damn nice to my mum. Like I am showing really sincere care and concern for her la, like I won't wanna leave her alone kind, and always try to make her feel happy, like eating meals at home( even though I prefer to do so now, cuz i have no money :( ) , showing her what games i play and all la, cuz after chuwen's mummy incident, I really saw the light about caring for your love ones cuz they come and might go easily too "touchwood", i always felt so after funerals and all, i would show extreme appreciation for a day or two then after that just "bling!" back to my old quiet self at home, but not for now, cuz I can really imagine the pain and the torment I will face if one sunny day, I lost my parents "touchwood', I would really get into depression and everything would fall apart, I would live in remorse and guilt cuz I obviously, hardly talk to them, appreciate them, like I always dao them, dao them more than how I normally dao kelly and all. I myself hates getting dao too la, but my dao to them is super extreme and all. so yup, so im starting to appreciate them, esp my mum, since my dad is in china and all, and im gonna zuo fei ji on fri to china for a holiday and a reunion with papa! kinda eggcited too!

Nevertheless, i think i am not as optimistic as before, like last time in cca and sec life, we had projects, we had problems and im always like the one who will draw the attention to smth else so ppl will forgot abt that bad thing, or I will like "come on guys! can one can one!" but now, my "come on guys!" are like so minimal, and not as enthusiastic as before. Im just one day closer to death upon waking up everyday.... meh.....

Saturday, 8 December 2012

Life

Today i ate quite alot for breakkie! oreo with milk and rainbow fishes( sarah gave it to me cuz ytd i texted her to tell her inwas cranky!' ) Went to chuwen s mommy s wake recently, she passed away due to cancer:( went there with sasa, shaun, and her mum:( cw s mum was being diagnosed with cancer since she was sec1, and she didnt tell a single soul abt it. When we saw her, her eyes didnt swell as much as we expected, is either she has been being very brave or living in self denial, away from the cold hard truth. Sasa s mum was diagnosed with cancer, ruths dad had a stroke. All of our parents has at least a sickness already, like my mum.. She was being p and had d too:( wonder when will this vicious cycle stop, wonder if it is really cursed or smth since 4 of us were really good friends during pri sch.

Saw tony on the bus recently, and as i wanted to wave, i dropped my owl and all his friends at the back laughed... Lameeee... So embarrasing! n we ketchup a little, and i was sharing wif him how i think gladys and i are kinda distant right now. Recently, i think i hv been really distant with many ppl like mich, gladys, ares and many many ppl. I think right now tony is like the only good friend from cibtc whom we have been keeping in touch since he is like in the same course as me. The rest are in diff schs, diff course:( hardly even see them around in sch at all. And mj commented on my pic on fb and i was like where is my ares outing!? And he didnt even respond:( oh welll....

I complained to chang abt grace chiam
The other day abt how she doesnt take initiative to date us out and all, surprisingly she wanted to lunch with me recently and we decided to have it executed nx yr!:) hooray!!

Went out wif sarrylarry ytd to chinatown, otw, i saw jierui and chongxian, feel so happy is like the c beattyian day! actualy didnt really c jierui, cuz he texted me and asked me was i at the mrt.. and blablabla. Kinda sad that he is living spore, he is like one of the kewtest junior i had la! chongxian and i wasnt very close la, but then we toked like siao and i lied to him i was in rp and all! teeheee!! i really loved the atmosphere and setting, it felt like another country with all
The run down shophouses, street hawkers! Oh i ate white carrot cake for dinez! It was heavenly! The crispyiest carrot cake i ever eaten! If only there were lesser of this salted thingy, i think is salted fish, but sarah told me is actually white raddish, it would be purrrfecttt! We went to oakham market, and she bought a few loots! Nth caught my eye though and i was really broke:( the street at oakham market was so quaint! It was barish, beerish, angmoish, countryish, it felt like it was a 1980s setting, i really love places in spore which made me felt like i was in another era/country, i felt so happy and peaceful, forgetting abt the fastpace lifestyle i am having.... Will
Go there someday again!!

Ytd we had ob presentation, and billy was funny:) look at him!


slacked with molly at the back of the lecture to prepare for our dss:) in the end, it turn out alright! i didnt fumble as much as i expected:)


and shortly after the lecture, we went to do dss, ahahaha and we bullied jiantoufa:) he helped us clean the dirty smirty tables at the atrium! oh and he treated us bb tea:) i drank mango sunrise yoghurt and i lied to ppl it was called mango sunset, lol and they believed! haahahah:) ho maigawddddddddddd
su hui korkor intro me to this:) is diy oreo and milk:) i name it oreo cereal:) super duper nice:)


molly wapp me a pic of this, indeed i didnt ku siao. but oh well. come to think of it, i cant really smile properly in poly cuz i really hate life in poly and miss sec sch loads, unless is smth really happy or im really very happy or smth so peeps out there! u shld feel honoured when i really no ku siao when i take pic with you! <3

this is yummy cheesy rainbow fishies sarah gave me cuz i told her i was feeling cranky upon meeting her at bishan to mrt tgt to chinatown!<3 feel so loved! and it really taste yummmyyyy!














Tuesday, 4 December 2012

Cranky

Been really cranky this few days. Even shouted at molly cuz i tot she was asking me silly qns during ob. Gosh. Kinda feel bad. Hopefully my pre menstrual syndrom will gt away far far away from me soon. Really stress abt alot of stuffz. Theres like j, who i think is giving me hopes for nth, theres like s, whom i feel sorry and a tinge sense of fear, theres like p who is damn annoying, theres like exams nx week and i haven bloody touch a single shit, theres like dss and its long, tedious script.... Sianz.

I seriously need strength and motivation. Need some self control too. Secretly im hating like a few of my close friends and detesting them with all my heart sianz i think im possessed or smth:( ohgawd.

Today i let the secret out of the bag to lynn. Felt comforting after telling her abt it, i mean is nt abt showing off that heyyy, someone is xxxx me. But is like this burden, this at a lost, whereby im nt really exp and goodfriends advice and thoughts will definitely easen this load. This kind of
Thing is nt really load either, is just too exciting for words and bothers me alot kind of thing. Ohwell....

Monday, 3 December 2012

Weekends!

My weekends were all burnt cuz i was working at yishun esso station, selling some speedpass. I was kinda scared and unhappy when sarah told me she wasnt gonna work wif me for the first few days cuz i was damn scared i woudnt blend in with her yolo friend and his friends who were working wif me. Ohwell firstday of work, which was last week was kinda boring, sarahs yolo friend was funny but he was like our supervisor so i he didnt play around much, the other guy was weird and quiet. And thenother guy was like doubly weird and turn off. So yup, there goes my boring sunday. Then last sat, there were like 2 new guys, those 2 weirdos were gone. Then ya quite turn off. Blablabla. And it was funny cuz they keep disturbing me and all, and sales was good. Time pass faster that time. Sunday was abit meh... And yup. Cant wait for the kacching kacching to come in.

Had some insights abt this recent bod thingy in leo. Some were somewhat unhappy. Tbh, i knw hw it feels la but is kinda subjective and i dun feel like explaining on this point. For me, though i got selected this feedback thingy but i didnt really care cuz leo is nt the kind of organization i would wanna stay in for long i think, there s not this strong bond. I think is prolly np and i talked to a few np gf abt it, they told me the same too. Is like despite having so many downs in np, all of us are still knitted as one. All of us respected almost each and everyone in np. Like we arent cliquish, we are tgt as a whole, hand in hand and all. In leo rite, for me, yes it appears we are a whole, but theres this tinge of cliquish and things wont blend in as easily as it is for me. I rmb that xyz suggested to the bods that there should be more meals tgt, tgt with the whole leo, leo would be more bonded. But nah, i doubt so. Is nt as ez as meals and all. The note was alr start of wrongly cuz cliques have already been bonded "knitted" "strongly".

Np has taught me alot, it made me grow ssooo much more abt friendship as well as leadership too much till manytimes, i felt that is quite"abnormal" cuz only ug kids will have this feeling it isnt the "norm", hence not able to connect well with the normal cca-club ppl. This outbreak is so intense till at times I just cant wait for everything to end, cant wait to get away, really strong urge to skip and forgo them. Once ago, np taught me how to be responsible and all, at times,
it is soo hard to skip and run away from
things i hate. Np has really taught me how to deal with the many kinds of teacher, judging each and everyone s behaviour. I admit is not good to judge la, but this is the real world, if one looks ugly, no fashion sense, weird, one would be considered as looserish and all. Hence, naturally, in np, there used to be these feel who dont feel part of the squad. Eg. Our cp, she backstabs, she is friendless in sch, hence everyone kinda hated her and all. Oh and she paws and bootlicks, and everybody started judging er secretly to be a poor, unbefitting, useless cp.She bootlicked upstairs, hence she was able to climb to such social status, in the end down she went. G has told me that this is normal, cuz np has really train us, and shape us, our innerself has alr been diff from others, though we dont appear to behave differently, but between us and the normal kids out there, there s whole list of aliens. Somewhat i feel like an alien cuz in poly, all my kinds are all diff course from me, other schs, graduates. I seriously just cant wait for sch holidays when i can just meetup with each and everyone of them to share with them my many many thoughts.

Kinda wonder what will happen if i dont wear blue...

Recently, i saw m. Ohgawd. It was super awkward at first cuz of xyz. But then we began to click, is just that np spirit in me, or mayb in us, that kind whereby you can tok to anything uder the sun. I hated c,a,z before and im quite sure when i meet thm i still can pretend and talk to them as if the hatred has vanished! Really really misss those np kids:(

At times i will use np logic to apply it to my daily problems and all, is never the norm and im none of my polymates can understand it.... Ohwell... Is jus 3 more yrs and a few yrs in uni and voila.