Turning point

I think im secretly enjoying poly life. Like so manu fun peeps in my life. Theres still true friends and bullyable friends whom j can depend on, have fun with, talk too, share with, play with, work hard with etc. feeling really grateful suddnly. Prolly cuz i mix wif molly too much, i have alot of thoughts and am really sentimental but i suck at showing appreciation and concern i think( hmmm,yup i do!)

So yup! Kinda enjoyin the company i have in poly life:)

bmgt project :)

Been so sick these few days, i rarely gt sick so once i gotta virus, it is gonna be horrible, terrible, vegetable:( ohwell, saw
Someone in my fb on9 shop wanting to purchase my exact f21 marvel pullover:( homaigawd so saddd:( is gonna b overrated soonnnn:( noooooo:( need to sell more stuffs to clear my wardrobe and invite new peeps to gt in:)

Molly bought for me honey lemon today. Didnt really felt so loved, like i was too sick to think abt feelings and being thankful, like im having the blanking, stoning feel now:( quite grateful, it has been super duper long since ppl surprise me wif little treats likethat! Ohhhh how i loveee surprises:) naice surprises yo, not nasty ones. But sometimes i think nasty ones are funny!! HAHAHA

HAD BMGT DISCUSSION THESE FEW Days! Everyone other than silly lynn came to my housie!:) it was kinda fun, cuz we bullied billy and all....

brightening thy blog

gonna make this one day! rainbowey and kittykattish and mnmish

this is really very kewt:) i lub boo!

ootd for kahwei's birthday celerbration, it was the first time pairing plaid shirts with skirts, we went to novena to celerbrate his birthday, and idk why i wanted to wear so neat and smart, is like so lepakish event and no big celerbration...

 

 

i actually sold a denim skater skirt on my bs, but then i saw another skater skirt with pockets in modparade which isnt so mainstream as those hw skater skirt from butteredguns i decided to purchase it:) HATE MAINSTREAM STUFF >:( 

made jiantoufa's burstay card and im so proud of myself, looks so arty farty

kewtsie marshmallows from china, i got this whole pack of kewtsie animal marshmallows but i forgot to take picture of them:( so sad:( my memories:( but oh well, is cute aren't they, lovely pastel baby colours, and like these marshmallows are made so beautifully, with so many intricate details...

one other fateful day, me and molly decided to have a stupid adventure during maec lecture, i think it was just last week, so we just sat on the hill and took random shots, climb up the stairs and took silly shots. cuz lec was held at some engineering ulusih block, so we wanted to exploreeeeee. TADA! THE MIGHTY EXPLORERS:

oh, and on the same fateful day, we had bmgt project at poolside, here's billy, and our grp kinda bond:) love bonded groups:) really make me feel happy and enjoy what im doing:)  OH BILLLLYYYYY

 

and i signed up for idare! homaigawd, told suhui korkor abt this: actually, i didnt really want want wanttt so badly to go for idare cuz i am damn scared of the company, like im funny and silly but i still need a lil more time then the others to join in the fun, i think i gt socially awkward easily unless is like really damn same channel like siao, like siao u knw, but is hard, cuz this is poly, the probability of finding a same channel like siao person is freaking hard, is like 0.000001111 and the z formula and bayes theorem and other rubbish( HOMAIGAWD, IM TOKING ABT GIBBERISH BSTATS ). so yup, and im gonna have my menses:( meh

another shitty day..

BMGT, OB REPORT IS OVER!

i think i daydreamed like for 5 secs when molly is presenting abt the roles in bmgt, hence the flow for the powerpoint was not good as I didnt click properly, that chemistry was lost and i kinda felt bad for screwing up that minor part, i doubt molly realizes too. lol. at first i was really nervous, but after when i speak, i got the flow and it was ok. and we sang "save my world" which kinda failed but I still enjoyed the processed of working on the project wif mollypolly:)

ob was meh.

BMGT is gonna be really eggciting this sem, there's more tasks to explore hence, more interaction within groupmates! and I communicated with frankie alot:) really happy though:)

saw darren moh's zi lian photo on fb, it was really funny and silly and i started showing the pic to everyone, darren moh never fails to make my day :) i went to comment "intro pls" on his picture, i bet he must be cursing and swearing at me... as usual...

my dad came to fetch me today, tgt with molly, lame shit, he kept nagging and nagging about me giving him an earlier time.. i told him lesson ends at 5.30, but unfortunately i hopped in the car at 6.00 and he was nagging and all. im like.. seriously, ngee ann is humongous, and our teacher might not release us on time, and we needa walk, take lifts, walk, cross roads, climb etc. last night, i told him sch starts at 8.00 then he was like okay 7.30 leave the house, 8.00 we willr each, then i was like lesson starts at 8.00 and i needa walk? then he was like yup! u will reach school by 8. wtf. he just don get me. i really cannot gt along wif ppl whom does not share the same chemistry as me i think.. but i think everyone feels the same too...  the he started giving me stupid tests like. does your bus to ngee ann goes this way or that way while i was in the car. then i was like huh? er this way? molly was whispering me to me "this way!" in my mind, i was thinking why would he suddnly ask me such ridiculous qns? im like so sucky at roads and directions and everyone knows... and he was scolding me for not putting effort in answering his qns and all. wtf. will this affect much? and i really dun give a damn about roads and ... ahya jus fml.

feeling really dead tired.. and i think np peeps are kinda disappointed wif me for not able to attend beatty's sec 1 orientation tmrw:( kinda feel bad cuz i really wanna attend, i knw im gonna enjoy it and all, enjoying all the hypes in the school, but im really tired and i needa catchup wif my school work. I am kinda like a slow learner and tend to procrastinate alot. People say, if you can manage time well, you can actually fufill all of ur commitments, the point is, diff ppl has diff personality, there are slow learners in this world( like me), they need time to adapt, rest etc. i need time to procrastinate in order to proceed on further to my work, so all this bits and pieces of time are actually impt to me, if you think that i cna use these procrastinated time to commit to np and all, but unfortunately, is these bits and pieces of breaks charging my body up, giving me that extra push in my work, therefore, i can study more effectively under such circumstances. I cant foresake my studies, Im not that noble to foresake them like what np peeps did, somehow, despite the fact that i dun wanna continue studying after poly life, i secretly wished that i can do really well for my gpa, n still gt into some prestigious uni... but... oh well...

02012013

fuck this shit man. seriously. damn buay tahan of this period of tormenting life i needa go through. as i was writing out some maec notes. my dad came in and started complaining then i only knw how to bs and play com and all, and didnt play the piano. what the fuck. seriously. it was the holidays right, i totally need a break, and piano is like, u need feel to play, if im unhappy, i hv no feel, i will just anyhow play and sulk through the practice, im barely not even practicing since im not even enjoying and putting in the feelings for my pieces. fuck this to the max. and i told him before that my mum always does that, and that will like make me hate piano even more, fucking feel like smashing the keyboard and burn this burden instrument.

my studies are all in the mess and they only know how to ask here ask there, nag here nag there, why cant u jus leave me alone in peace. i need a break alright. i hv already spent my precious dec holidays going china wif u all and like bonded wif u all, it was seriously a fucking waste of time and i fucking didnt enjoy it, i had to put on a brave smile, that stupid fucking fake mask and look as if i enjoyed the whole fucking trip. what kind of life is that man. my holiday breaks are not enough alr and i seriously need a long escapade away from this shit life.....

31/12/2012

yesterday i was feeling damn nemo and i told kelly and molly and like a few other peeps who were texting me. sianz. kelly and molly sent me some funny pics which kinda brighten up a lil. oh and i was on my way to the printer place at bishan, there's this guy who was supposedly asking ppl to donate to some needy ppl, he sang the first 4 lines of the call me mayb and wanted to kinda like act as a catchphrase to ask me to donate. holy, he was kewt and tall but it was my typical bluey mood so i jus walk away wif a thanks. lol. oh well.

then had unit meeting, learnt alot from it, and i even took up the responsibility to plan CL camp, blimey. kinda eggcited to showcase my talents too. hopefully i can be inspired with some wild good ideas. next some lame prob pop out between sc and the CI's. kinda regret taking the wrong step by showing jh the text. shld have showed it to some calmer ci's first.meh.

dont really have any resolutions for the year though. im just yi tian guo yi tian. so like mehhh.. jus hope that next yr will be a more fruitful and eventful yr and i can stop pms-ing soon. been pmsing for really long.....