Cabbed frm sch to hq n was super early and i jus camped outside and sat at this shelter pretending to use phone cuz i was damn lazy to pay respects n was scared that i did it wrongly. Ohhh and i reminiscie abt cibtc , the place where i sat were where we had debriefs, and the classroomms.. awwww:( reaally miss my squadmates alot:( then lol, i got h20 n packet of water frm an upstairs and he kept me in an aircon room though i only helped him to shift the chairs. Lol. N he brought mr t in and was like persuading me to do their duties instd of doing admin work duty! but ohwl, i ended up wif admin, sorting out ho s reviews and reading wad the to s wrote for them! hmmm, indeed nt all upstairs are capable, is just a title. So if i wanna carved a name out, i cant b slacky or i will loose respect of the cadets:)
Sasa came to my house ytd, it was damn impromptu cuz i tot my hq duties is gonna end late but zooweemama, it ended earlier cuz i was fast n efficient:) yeah! So i went orchard in pt kit n met her at art friends. Was kinda reminiscine the time when i spent so long there jus to source for inspirationn n materials for x s burstay. Ohwelll! Following then i went to amos n spent like 10 bucks there to celerbrate for the renewal of me and my ezlinkkkie!!:) i found it in my wallet! We ketchuped alot and hope she n zacky will get married and bears babies and make me the bidesmaid and name their daughter jolyn too!!:)
had dss today, ohmygawd, felt so angsty throughout.i freaking said so much and everybody just dao-ed me, and likewts, almost all i said was useful, like i said we were suppose to add the discount column too cuz i felt that with more info added to the excel, is easier to compare and looks neater, but n just said smth like no, is not necessary, the discount portion is alr in the qns. oh well, smth like that. then i also said smth like dunno dunno wad, then ya jus go dao-ed. okay not alot useful things, mayb 2. and i was like eye powering all the way, hate eye powering cuz is like damn useless, i mean like we could have used the time to do nett food sales(EVEN THOUGH IS TASK 2) since is not even related to nett room sales. OHWELL, SCREW IT. is either my command of language is damn poor, ppl cant understand or they just dun wanna listen.
then, molly, nam and I ponned bmgt lecture and went for lunch:) yumyup, chicken terriyaki sandwich:) after lec, molly and I COLD WAR-ED. okay la, come to think of it, i cant really blame her, like in her shoes rite, if i went lunchie wif her class then that ordeal wont happen and is also no harm going ma, since i wont loose a hair or smth, but oh well, i jus felt that her words were not tactful enough. She just simply say that jolyn feels awkward with you all blablabla, is like damn wtf, okay la, mayb she is trying to help kiefer so that her class will understand why kiefer is not lunching with them. But hello, there's like so many peeps there and a handful of them are like those "newcomers" kind, she just like str in the face, threw my face in front of them, tarnished it, and portrayed to others a selfish, impatient jolyn to the rest. obv, she feels that her classmates will understand it la, but bloody hell, im standing beside and those judgey eyes, wtf ttm. so wad if her classmates dun care, i care enough alr. oh, and she compared me wif e. Molly, e and I were like close friends so if like e was jealous and was afraid of coming into our grp is like quite silly la, cuz since all of us are alr so close and is only molly and I, so is not awkward to fit themselves in. but then bloody hell, is a class, like 10 ppl? and knittted close bonds are forged, is not just 2 or 3 ppl, is like wad whole big clique. like 10 knitted peas and 1 solo banana? who will be so thick skin to barged themselves and fit into a big big clique? okay, even if she wanna tell her class that jolyn is awkward, i mean like idc if ppl talks behind my back, as long as dun let me know, u can tok rubbish if u want like there are so many tactful methods. obv, abv is wad I will do la, so if wad I think i will be doing, naturally i will believe that others can, cuz is like put into their shoes kind of thing. but ahya, i think she will understand when she sees this post ba, but obv, not everything I can do, ppl will do la, cuz everyone is diff so i am not really as pissed with molly as just now. oh and lolz! molly apologised to me, i was like brimming wif tears but luckily like it was humid so it sort of evaporate very fast, is like the first time i hear a friend apologizing to me sincerely, like using my ears to hear kind. Then after that we patch back la, duhhh, this ordeal was kinda impactful, stepping stones and arguements always strengthens friendships la, i mean if u dont argue wif one before, you wont like knit closer bonds with them. Think about times you spent wif your bestest bestest friend/ goodiest friend, a number of ordeals and problems has occured right? Probably, now you think one is your bestest friend but you both have not had any mini setbacks before or you did not secretly hated her or smth,think again, is the bond really close knitted? Can you tell one anything under the sun kind? Will there be hesitations? This is just my pov since i have seen many many people, like literally seen and judged many many many kinds of friendships before, those that are sincere, those that are fakies, those wannabes, those boring ones, fun ones, awkward silences kind etc.
BUT I STILL DAMN LIKE LITTLE SMELLY MOLLYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
toodles<3
